Tripping help~ possible panic attacks? ♀️

[TheUniverseIsLove]

Every trip I have ever had on shrooms has been beautiful, eye opening, and very spiritually enlightening. 

However, I also occasionally get what may be panic attacks (?) I have had them while smoking weed/ edibles and even once or twice while sober. 

Sometimes my vision gets blurry, sometimes I feel spaced out and feel like I could pass out.... like my mind isn’t really there anymore, and I have to focus to stay conscious (drinking water, physical touch, or eating something seems to help), and sometimes I get extremely cold and shake, and sometimes I just shake uncontrollably.  

One time from 2 edibles my whole body shook for 40 minutes. I timed it. 

Like, It is scary to stand up because I feel like I’m gonna pass out when I do. 

When they happen now, I don’t fear them anymore, but also, I could deal without them. And once the shaking starts, no matter how calm I am, I just have to let it run it’s course.  

It also feels like my body might have trouble digesting the toxins. Or it might have something to do with my menstral cycle or intestines (idk ?‍♀️). 

It doesnt happen every time, but I’m never sure what’s different. 

I would really like to do acid one day, and do mushrooms again; but the idea of a longer trip with the possibility of my reaction sounds exhausting. 

It’s a different kind of exhausting than trips I  have had without the reaction. 

Any idea what it could be, or advice?

Thanks in advance.

Love to all. ❤️

 

 

Edited April 5, 2020 by TheUniverseIsLove

[Inliytened1]

Weed gave me panic attacks too.

Its a defense mechanism.

 The ego does not wish to die and it fears becoming conscious that it is not real but that it is God and that it is an illusion.

My advice don't rush it.  Go out and live.  Work on your baseline consciousness.   Meditate and do self inquiry and then trip again when ready.  

[TheUniverseIsLove]

@Inliytened1 

The state one is in during a trip is also an illusion. We are ONE no matter what state of sobriety we are in. Some states just take us out of our “ego homeostasis” more and shake up our baseline perception. 

(Such as when tripping: tripping is a controlled way to achieve high states of perception change, which leads to more frequent insights to the whole)

Also, I am not scared of the ego dying- I can never die if I am everything- and yet my body seems to be less willing to change perceptions, according to its reactions. 

It is also how I feel about covid-19. I am not afraid of it. I see it for what it is: A suffering of sorts because it attacks the ego’s physical form (pain and potential death) and the ego’s attachments (world structure, family, friends, etc.) 

I am not afraid of either tripping or covid, and yet I can sense the ego’s what ifs. I feel them. Sometimes mentally, but mostly physically. 

It is to be scared, without being scared at all.  

It is fear, without suffering. 

To die as the essence of the self, though meaningless, still attaches itself to a meaning that exists somewhere; And though that meaning exists, it is your reaction to it that creates or diminishes suffering. 

Why?

It is as much of a mystery to me as to why my entity as an ego even exists at all.  Lol

Also, Thank you for your advice. I will take my time for sure. I must train my body to be as ready as my mind.  ?