Focus Shion 1

[Preety_India]

This is my new journal. 

I want to sharpen my focus everyday and get more into actualizing. 

Hopefully this will be a good start. 

 

Edited March 25, 2020 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Since quarantining myself, my goals have taken a hit. 

I'm no longer able to have a clear focus. It feels like a handicap. 

The relationship had sucked so much of my energy, almost left me dead. 

Now I've to get back up again. 

I constantly feel low in energy and this coronavirus situation dampened my spirit very miserably. 

 

I went back into my depression spiral. So bad. 

 

I'm just waiting for this Corona disaster to get over with so I can start my life again. I miss my painting classes so bad. 

I miss going to the stores, shopping, traveling. 

My goals have been completely off. 

There were things that I always took for granted like food. 

Now I have to scramble for food, travel long distances to get it. 

Constantly check if I have enough food in the kitchen. It gets very tiring to take care of little things. 

It strips me off my focus on spirituality and other things I would like to do. 

I have so much on my plate that sometimes I get nervous. 

However I had one major issue...... BOYFRIEND.. 

I no longer need to deal with that. It's out of my life. 

That person is out of my life for good. He can no longer disrupt me control me. He can no longer wreck me. 

I'm so glad I broke up. 

I'm liberated from the guilt of being with him. No more putting up with his bullshit. 

 

Now it's time to heal and move on and enjoy myself and be myself. 

 

Edited March 23, 2020 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

I'm so addicted to writing and Journaling. But it's therapy for me. 

Since Journaling I've gone through immense healing. 

I have come to terms with myself, my inner intuition got stronger, I was able to open up more each day. This has tremendously helped me in my recovery from depression. 

Although I did try to seek professional therapy, I didn't find it satisfactory. 

The therapist gives me very less time and charges more. A practical hindrance. 

So I decided I will heal myself on my own and not spend much money on it. 

So far Journaling has helped a lot. 

It's almost like talk therapy. 

 

[Preety_India]

One of the blockages I suffer are what I call chapters 

When I'm dealing with something in life, let's say a financial problem or a career issue or family or relationship problems, I lose focus very fast. 

My focus goes to zero and I get scatter brained. 

I use distraction to deal with stress. 

This has a bad impact on my overall life. 

So once a chapter is over, let's say I moved to another city or broke a relationship, I feel my energy and focus coming back. It's like I have to keep finishing and resolving each chapter of my life till I come to a blank page in the book of my life, or shall I say a blank skate, and then I can move on from this blank slate into creating something for myself. 

So resolving and completing each chapter of my life is important. That way I don't remain stuck in that chapter or situation and can gladly move on. 

I know that I can't forever wait for things to be perfect for me to have a clean start. I know it's a sort of procrastination kind of thing 

But at least some amount of free space in life is important. 

Free space in life is like computer storage. 

You need a minimum storage space in the computer memory to be able to organize folders and files and put them in order. Without enough space, it will be difficult to transfer large data files. 

In a similar way, having a life filled with too many things to deal with makes it impossible to organize it properly. You're dealing with too much shit to focus exclusively on healing. 

Once you get rid of the shit one by one, you have enough free room in your mind and in your life to start thinking about putting things in order and in perspective. 

Hopefully I will be able to do this now more than ever before. 

I couldn't have imagined doing something like this back in 2016. 

Now things are gathering like a cloud and bad things are melting and good things are condensing together. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

 

My goal is to change from 

 

This....

 

 

 

 

 

To this 

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Goals 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

11 minutes ago, pluto said:

Who knows, it is fun though, i am loving all the humor while the whole world is in panic mode i am feeling the deep peace and healing that is occurring on the planet. Media = Mind/EGO that's why they do not notice it. The distraction cannot distract awareness, only mind.

 

 

1 minute ago, Preety_India said:

These words are beautiful. I'll put them in my journal. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

4 hours ago, pluto said:

Who knows, it is fun though, i am loving all the humor while the whole world is in panic mode i am feeling the deep peace and healing that is occurring on the planet. Media = Mind/EGO that's why they do not notice it. The distraction cannot distract awareness, only mind.

 

 

3 hours ago, Preety_India said:

These words are beautiful. I'll put them in my journal. 

 

 

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[Preety_India]

1 hour ago, IJB063 said:

@GrowthPilgrim Yeah you're right, I probably listed to many

I haven't yet made my routine second nature but I'm working on it

I think everyone's routines has been messed up with the shutdown

If I was going to summarize my routine for the shutdown

• Morning Schedule - Cold Shower - Some Coffee and Chess
• Some Reading
• Breakfast - Eggs & toast
• Music Practice
• Studying and Writing
• Lunch
• Dinner
• Play some video games - listen to podcasts
• Commonplace book writing
• Exercise for 30 minutes
• Listen to music
• Mindfulness meditation
• Presleep reading and avoiding screens

Currently in Britain all exams are cancelled, and its seem the grade that we're going to given is our estimated grade, meaning the college year has been a complete waste, so I'm struggling to summon any will to even bother with revision, if I was certain that I could actual sit my exams than I'd be studying for the rest of my day

 

 

3 hours ago, GrowthPilgrim said:

@IJB063 pheww... that is A LOT of habits. It's obvious, that you are a student ^^ 

My habits during the shutdown:

• Journal / Morning Pages directly after waking 
• Mindfulness Meditation 20min thereafter (Level 1-2 of A Mind Illuminated)
• Healthy breakfast (muesli with oats, nuts, chia, ... )
• Healthy lunch (medium-size salad)
• Cooking 2 huge whole food plant-based meals per week (for many servings of dinner)
• Taking a walk once or twice a day - 10.000 steps (since gym is closed and my doctor says I have to wait before I can go running again)
• Call my girlfriend / parents / grandma / ...
• Checking the Actualized.org forum and answering some questions 
• Mindful winddown ritual incl. stretching, reading (30min)

The rest ist just working (coding) with a lot of short breaks in between ^^

 

6 hours ago, IJB063 said:

"We are what we repeatedly do, excellence then, is not an act, its a habit".- Aristotle

"Well-Being is realized in small steps. But it is no small thing" - Zeno

So given the Corona Virus, college has closed, I can't work and can't go out, so basically I am completely fucking bored and starting to get cabin fever. This time in isolation has really proven to me how lazy I really am. So I've been meaning to make a schedule for a while, planning to add some habits to do everyday. I'm gonna use google calendar and a habit tracker app. Found one called HabitHub which is bout a £1 (cheapest one I found) which track/checklists and sends you a notification on your habits, if anyone is interested.

So I want to know what habits do you do, and any ideas to productively pass the corona time?

Thanks for anyone who reads and gives their ideas

Below are some simple ideas for habits I've already noted

Anyone who has any notes to add do so

The more novel the habit the better e.g. Its easy to just say "read more", but add something to it like "read 10 pages before sleep every night" to avoid screen use and get better sleep etc...

I read a website on habits which said to ask questions at the end of the day

Did you wake up on time?

Did you eat a healthy breakfast?

Did you read today?

Did you avoid TV and internet?

Did you meditate?

Etc...

So here are my habits

 

#1 Healthy Sleeping Schedule

So waking up at the right time and going to sleep at the right time. My sleeping schedule is warped right now, been going to sleep at about 1am and waking up at about 11am, during isolation because I have been doing anything during the day stimulate me. This is priority #1 for me right now, here's a video TED talk by Matthew Walker a sleep specialist I found on the JRE podcast which talks about the importance of sleep. (Note - Going to look into lucid dreaming - anyone who has any info on how to do it, add it, cheers)

 

#2 Reading

So I've been aiming to read a book every week since the start of the year and I've so far only missed two weeks. I get most of reading done on my commutes but since the corona virus I've been finding it hard to read the same amount. I'm going to start reading right before I sleep at least 10 pages, so I'm not on my phone so I can get to sleep easier. Particularly been reading the classics, there are millions of shitty books out there to read and I only have so much time and will power, in my day to be bothered reading. We read to think others thoughts and you want the highest quality thought as possible. Reading though also means getting up to date with current events etc...

"As the biggest library if it is in disorder is not as useful as a small but well-arranged one, so you may accumulate a vast amount of knowledge but it will be of far less value to a much smaller amount if you have not thought it over for yourself: because only through ordering what you know by comparing every truth with every other truth can you take complete possession of your knowledge and get it into your power"

 

#3 Meditation

Been meditating 30 minutes everyday. "Mindfulness meditation". Usually I put on some guided meditation audio in the background so I don't drift and forget what I'm doing, I know there are a lot of resources on this forum on how to meditate better and I've already gotten some sent to me which is greatly appreciated. Any notes to add for a beginner are also appreciated.

https://www.reddit.com/r/streamentry/wiki/beginners-guide

 

#4 Exercise

So can't go to the gym or go running currently with the corona virus, but I have at home a barbell, bench, with some weights (45kg) and some dumbbells. Recently began taking supplements e.g. Whey, fish oil etc... I've been exercising regularly for the past two months now. Been enjoying starting running, was training with my brother to run a half marathon but its been cancelled now. Running anyway has given me a reason to go out in nature more, going through the park and woodland area near my house and also running alongside the beach. So exercising gives you a reason to spend more time in nature, makes you feel better in your body, boosts your immune system (which is needed now), builds discipline and strength, lowers your heart rate, makes you live longer plus you end up looking better - so a must do habit.

 

#5 Music Practice

This can be anything I think that involves creativity and induces a flow state in you, doesn't just have to be learning an instrument. I aim to practice guitar everyday. But it tends to be that I only practice it about three times a week, but when I do I can't put it down and go for hours, its just summoning the will to pick it up and practice. A while back I bought a Yamaha keyboard but I haven't been fucked to practice it, I used it about 4-5 times, and now its dissembled and just gaining dust under my bed. Might start practicing it over this period.

 

#6 Solitude

So this habit of mine is for at least ten minutes I just do nothing. Not meditate but just sit with my thoughts. I don't mean focus on the breath or a object. I just let my head do whatever it wants. Its usually just a reset in my day so I can remember what else I need to do in the day.

 

#7 Healthy Eating

So in honesty I know fuck all about nutrition, if anyone has any advice or info to link on the basics of nutrition and making a good diet thank you. Prior to the corona virus I was starting to eat healthier e.g. Some intermittent fasting, cutting out more sugars, and trying to limit bread etc... Plus making meal plans, ages ago found this youtube video below, which gives a simple meal idea to just throw a bunch of breadless chicken in a slow cooker, season it, and leave it there and whenever your hungry or come from the gym to take some out, cook some rice and add some healthy greens e.g. Green beans, peas, broccoli, asparagus etc... I have that as side meals, and to snack when I'm hungry I just have a bunch of celery sticks or apples with peanut butter. And for breakfast I just have scrambled eggs and a slice of toast.

 

#8 Chores

Simple, just make sure everything is tidy and organised. E.g. do the laundry, sought dishes etc... Just 5 minutes every day is enough to make sure everything is fresh.

 

#9 Cold Showers

So I don't do this everyday because I'm lazy, but I should. For at least three minutes. Cold showers have a bunch of health benefits and de stress you. Also they wake you the fuck up in the mornings - it beats coffee. So when I wake up and actually take a cold shower, I turn off the boiler, do some Wim Hof breath work till I'm light headed, then I get under the shower and turn it straight on. If you focus on the breathwork you can deal with the cold and after a minute it stops being really cold and turns refreshing. Its a good way to start the day.

 

#10 Socialising

Generally if you put no effort into messaging your mates  etc... There never going to come to you, you get what you put into friends, people tend to be way more busy doing their own things to even think about yours. So take some time to message people and check up on them daily and see what their up to etc...

 

#11 Podcasts - Actualised.Org Vids - Lectures - Youtube

Usually if I'm doing something unproductive such as playing videogames or just surfing the web I always have a podcast or informative youtube video in the background. Or if I'm going for a jog etc... I then categorise these into playlists or add them to my OneNote/Journal, if they have anything of interest, where I timestamp and link to the point that's being made in the video or podcast, for the exact same reason as I read. I personally add these videos into playlists and watch later and just listen to them in order as I do what ever it is I'm doing.

 

#12 Grooming

Obvious but a necessary habit, shower daily. Clean teeth twice a day, regular haircuts, deodorant etc... Make yourself look presentable etc...  

 

#13 Dopamine Detox

So basically boring yourself to become resensitised to life again. Links to another post I did linked here, "Boredom is the Solution". Now your not going to do this every day, but more like once every two weeks on a weekend. I have only done this a few times but it works.

 

 

#14 Avoid TV - Videogame - Porn - Phone Use

Limit all of these, they are malignant tumours that eat up your time and suck out your will. I'm sure if you rarely do them they can be okay, but I recommend just avoid them, they're base time wasters. Porn is also something that should be limited, cause it eats away at the male libido, recommend looking into nofap. Limit tv and screen use till a single free day and a few hours on the weekend.

 

#15 Chess

Something I do in the mornings with some coffee as a way to get my mind working for the day. Go on chess.com or watch some chess videos, learn some openers etc... I recommend the same thing, doesn't have to be chess but anything in the morning that can get the mind operating.

 

#16 Holotropic Breathing

Kinda like Wim Hof but just breathing without pause for a prolonged period of time lying down can induce semi psychedelic states. Put on some music in the background, helps to mask your hyperventilation, and just do the breathwork, actually pretty fun, here's the Leo video which is timestamped for the demonstration but you can find other videos which teach similar things but they go under different names. Really meditative and clears the head. Probably going to do it once a week for 30 mins on a weekend.

 

#17 Writing - Journaling - Commonplace Book

Simple, just write for ten minutes. And any of those podcasts, books, websites etc... that are interesting write about them, articulate your own thought process. Make a common place book if you don't have one, mine has been super helpful, if you have one tell me how you organise and categorise it.

 

Curious about making into a habits

? Yoga

? Visualisation

? Boxing - Jiu Jitsu - Wrestling

? Learn New Language

Etc...

 

Leo Video on time management for how to implement these habits

 

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Godspeed & Take care with the Virus

 

[Preety_India]

I'm so stressed out by this lockdown and trying to cope 

 

 

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Don't beat a dead lion. Because when it wakes up you're fucked. I'm that dead lion. 

 

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At this point we need strength, we need hope, we need love and we need courage 

 

 

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Read st journal. You forgot 

 

 

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Aye mere dil-e-nadan tu gham se na ghabarana 
Ik din to samajh legi duniya tera afsaana
Aye mere dil-e-nadan tu gham se na ghabarana 

Armaan bhare dil mein zakhmon ko jagah de de 
Bhadke hue sholon ko kuch aur hawa dede
Banti hai to ban jaaye yeh zindagi afsaana
Aye mere dil-e-nadan tu gham se na ghabarana

 

[Preety_India]

These dreams I take to my grave 

 

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Leave with grace

 

Don't leave with anger. 

     

                         March 26. 2020 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited March 25, 2020 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

 

You're like a ball of negativity and I absorbed all your negativity for a very long time. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

And she was walking with a dark cloud on her. 

 

 

 

 

Edited March 26, 2020 by Preety_India

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Leave some carbon footprint and you get there.