I realized I'm God on my first small dose of mushrooms.

[cuteguy]

Hello,

Before my recent experience with mushrooms, a few months ago I had my first experience with psychedelics ever with 100 micro-grams of LSD, and the realization that I got from it was basically :
- Life is just a dream, it's not real, and "what does 'real' even mean?"
- Nothing can really hurt me, because I'm not real either (what a relief!)

Since that was my first psychedelic experience, I naturally was SHOCKED and wanted to know more. So I decided I'll get myself some mushrooms, and work my way up with the dosage. My plan was to do 4 trips from a "very low" to a "high" dose.

So I took my first "low dose" of mushrooms and here is what I realized, in order :
- Thinking is unreliable, has no ground of truth, and can only go in circles. (after this my 'thinking mind' just gave up.)
- I REMEMBERED, not realized, REMEMBERED that I am God pretending to be "me" and "everyone else", and that this is just a fun game that I am playing with myself. (At this stage I was laughing and saying things like "I was just kidding! Do you get it now?" and having a stream of insights simultaneously.)
- Me doing mushrooms was just an excuse to REMEMBER who I really am, and that I CAN remember anytime but I am CHOOSING not to.

So now, I have a few questions that I would like someone more experienced with psychedelics to answer for me :

- Why did this happen on such a small dose? 
- Why didn't I experience any resistance?
- Is this what they call ego-death?

Thanks, guys.

[ZenBlue]

9 minutes ago, cuteguy said:

I REMEMBERED, not realized, REMEMBERED that I am God pretending to be "me" and "everyone else", and that this is just a fun game that I am playing with myself. (At this stage I was laughing and saying things like "I was just kidding! Do you get it now?" and having a stream of insights simultaneously.)

When you get this joke, it becomes so hilarious. Like why were we so serious about life in the first place? God is the original trickster playing a prank on itself. 

As for psychedelics, I only have a small experience with it, so I don't really know.