2-CB Trip Report: I finally became the living room!

[Butters]

This was about 6 weeks ago but forgot to post it here sooner. 

Context

Lately I've been moving more and more into stage green with my values and the way I feel into the world. Stage green is not a tree hugging airy fairy phase where you become vegan and hate conservatives on Twitter (that's what I always thought it was). Instead, for me personally, it's a stage where I follow my heart directly, meaning authentic values. It's way manlier and more mature than prior stages.

I've taken mushrooms a while back and more recently done MDMA a few times. With the way I currently stand in life, I felt ready to try another psychedelic; 2cb.

Dosing

I took half a pill on the first day, but after about 3 hours took the other half. This to me was not a trip dose. The next day I took a full pill, which also wasn't a trip dose. I really wanted to go further deepening my consciousness so on day 3 I took 2 pills. This was a full trip dose.

1 pill = 20mg and I'm a 6"4 heavy guy so dosage may differ for you. Starting with half a pill and feeling the creativity without actually tripping was a great way for me to test this substance. 

Tripping

The first 2 doses made me present, enjoy music and gave me great insights into my life. Most notable about radical honesty like Leo talked about. Also gave me some guidance in my life personally that I won't share here. 

Day 3 (trip dose) went way different. I became conscious that I am everything. Caressing a wooden chair felt like caressing myself. This of course felt absolutely orgasmic. 

Sounds like a freaky trip experience but the concequences of this are radical as fuck, and I realized that right away. The lessons Leo has shared sure helped me understand better what happened. 

But in spite of that, my ego fought. Oh did it fight. Me not being me but being everything is not just scary to the ego, it's deadly. It means that everything was a lie. All wrong. I'm not me. Uh oh! 

I finally understood every lesson Leo has taught about ego. I understand what ego is now, I did not before. Obviously, because the ego cannot understand itself. I could type for hours but Leo has already said it all in his videos. 

During the peak (1.5hrs or so) I kept switching between ego defense and surrender to the experience. I've seen glimpses of enlightenment: orgasmic feeling, melting with reality, familiarity in everything, but my ego was too strong to fully surrender. 

During this ego defense (fear), I realized that the ego constantly wants to compare. Compare this experience to "normal", compare some situation to the "ideal" situation. Compare today to yesterday, compare this white car to other white cars from memory etc. That's how it constructs reality, in a way to keep me (biological organism) alive. 

Comparing to XTC 

I've used MDMA a bunch of times recently, which has really helped me deal with some childhood traumas. 

MDMA and 2cb are different. The latter is a psychedelic, MDMA is not. Molly made me very honest, happy and warm,but it's no threat to the ego. 

Also 2cb has more love and respect for future me so I make plans for the next day and sleep on time. Molly just makes me wanna stay up all night and cancel work the next day ?

Comparing to shrooms 

I've only tripped on shrooms once and I know shroom trips differ. But in my case I had sort of a dream with a spirit guide. Unlike 2cb, where I was so damn present and conscious that I became everything in the room. My 2cb trip was way scarier, but way more profound. 

 

Tips & interpretations:

• the ego is not this negative bad thing, you need it in order to help others and yourself.
• the next day I noticed a reduction in ego defense in many small ways. Nice! 
• only take psychedelics when you feel ready. Reality is absolutely not what you think, you ready for that? 
• trip on an empty stomach but don't eat during your trip. Reality eating itself was a little too freaky for me ? 
• your trip is inescapable so ride that wave. 

 

[Chakra Lion]

@Butters Nice detailed trip! 

some people try to become god... 

butters tries to become the living room...