Meo-5 DMT Trip Report

[RichnNL]

I'll start of by saying I have a bit of experience with psychedelics I do them about once every year or two years. I also do meditation and have done spiritual work for 5 years now. (So now that I proved my credibility ) I bought Meo5 DMT free base form about a year ago, and recently about a month ago finally bought the vapor thing. I couldn't get my hands on the powdered form, I bought a test kit and it seemed ok. I don't offend take psychedelics unless it has been too long or I find of need some insights. Recently I've been super busy with just life stuff work and getting a new home and preparing for a child. I would describe my live right now as having lots of good stress in it. I live with my girlfriend and she was out doing errand with the mother for the day and will be back tonight.

I woke up did my meditation and thought eh what the hell why not try this DMT thing. So reviewed how to use the vapor thing but in exactly 12mg of the good stuff. I actually screwed it up the first time and didn't get it working so I had to empty it all out and try again with another batch.

Leo was right and all the things I read on it was correct the freebase form hits you fucking hard out of no where. But I already had some experience with strong psychedelics so just went to sit down in an upright position in my bed. The first few seconds I saw the normal psychedelic stuff patterns in the floor etc. I never do it to see cool things. Then I felt really really bad, like death was coming. I went into my bathroom for some reason and sat on the floor. I seriously thought I was going to die. And my first thoughts were 'shit, this is a stupid way to go, my girlfriend is going to find me on dead in the bathroom, going out rock star or actor style'.

Maybe a minute passed or so I have no idea, time wasn't even a thing anymore. And then I literally forgot who I was. And was in an extremely confused state as to all the W's Who What Where and When. I looked in the mirror and then kind of remembered who I was and what had happened. Normally with other psychedelics I go through this very difficult to explain loop. Now that loop was magnified by 1000. My mind was going through this loop at million km per hour and again and again. There was nothing to see no patterns no nothing I was just in my head in this loop. And then it hit me. This part is almost impossible to put in words there are no words that can describe what happened because I think it is so alien to the human mind. So I am going to fuck up the explanation here. But I finally got it. I was going through my mind and everything that I have learned all of my personal experiences but somehow everyone and everything's experiences were coming together to this one moment that is always there but isn't pin pointed to one point in time. I wasn't myself I was everyone but I was myself. And I finally fucking got it. I finally understood what this life thing is all about I finally understood I was God. The loop that I have experienced vaguely with other psychedlics was explained. I finally experienced God and understood everything that all religions are trying to say, all of Leo's babble about how he is God. (Which I kind of understood logically but never understood at a super deep level). However I got a little too happy.

I was now sitting in my bathroom yelling out loud ohh ohhh, ohhh like a was being hit by insights. Then I said OOOHHHHH!!!

OHHHHHHHHHH. Oh my fucking GOD, oh my Fucking God!!! Holy Shit!!!. Holy FUCKING SHIT!!!!

Ok I was definitely high but its not the same the state I was in was real. I finally got it. And I found the entire life thing so fucking funny. I started laughing like the Joker. It was the funniest thing I have ever experienced in my life. It was pure irony. I was laughing so hard on the floor I started kicking my legs around and I accidentally hit my girlfriend stand thing with all her expensive make up on it. But I found that so funny because normally I would be freaking out. I started laughing so hard not just at my life and all the stupid and smart decisions I have made but just life in general. I understood oneness at this point and thought it is going to be hilarious when I come home to find my makeup broken by myself. So I got up and was so happy I took the make up thing and smashed it about 5 times on the ground. And then started yelling and laughing that I am awake and a FUCKING AWAKE!. I said THANK YOU my idiot parents!, Thank you Hitler, thank you Einstein thank you my past self for also being an idiot thank you so much!! I saw got up and ran out my bathroom and saw my phone on my bed and looked at the time and ran out to my balcony and yelled its March 1st 10:00 in the morning and I FUCKING AWAKE!!!

Then I went back inside, my laughing stopped at this point and I realized oh shit my girlfriend is going to be super pissed. The experience was now over but I had to clean up all the mess and quickly. To make matters worse the bloody police came by because it must have sounded to my neighbors like I just murdered someone. (I have thin walls). I wanted to explain to them that I everything is ok I just discovered I was God. But I made up some other bullshit story and will have to also make one up for my girlfriend. After I finished cleaning up the mess and I sat down and was like holy shit how can I explain this to anyone was it real?. I also reevaluated everything all the headache I had through to experience this buying a stupid vapor the drug and now I have to replace whatever damage I did. And thought worth it! I also shed a single tear for the first time in years and am so happy about life it all makes sense now. I also have some work to do from home so I should have done it when I had nothing to do but I am working and I fucking happy.

I also felt a need to share this experience with others but also realized its pointless, its not even handy for you guys unless you have been through the experience yourself. Also we are all one so it doesn't even matter.  So what can you get from this? I would not do this unless you have done lots of spiritual work, have experience with psychedelics and all that good stuff. The difference with this and mushrooms for example was after mushrooms I can say oh I see how I was being an prick or oh I should do this in my life. Here there was no lesson or lessons learned or self discovered this was at an entire different level. It is like what Leo said going to another universe and coming back. I don't know if my life will be improved or different I can't pin point it. I've experience something so radical so alien I feel now like my life will never be the same again but I cant explain how.