Why there's always an "I"?

[Javfly33]

I just woke up (from sleep lol...) and I was recalling what I dreamt.

It was one of those dreams of "emotional rollercoaster". 

It got me thinking, it's obvious everything that I dreamt was me, so how the fuck could I deluded myself to think otherwise? How in the world I felt strong emotions inside a dream, caused by some persons that were made of pure dream material! It's fucked up!

And yeah, I know why. It's because there's always an "I". However this doesn't provide me relief. It just leaves me more "frustrated". Why in the hell I can not be for example an object? Like the floor I am dreaming inside a dream. I mean its obvious.its made.from the same material everything ( a brain if you believe in that), so why can't?

Why I couldnt be in the dream the monster I was Fighting?

Why I couldn't be in the dream the girl with whom I was having an emotional.rollercoaster ?

When "I" stops being "I" and becomes everything? I really I'm excited for the "reunion" part of this movie God damn it. Im starting to get really tired of the silly joke reality is playing on itself. 

[Nahm]

@Javfly33 What if you had laughed knowing it was just a dream? What “prevented” that...what’s the worry? Maybe the dream is uncovering that for you to inspect and see through.

The reason why you cannot be an “object “, is because you are already you. If you were an object, “who” would be the subject? Clearly, this is getting ridiculous here, as you are already the subject and object. That is the only logical possibility. Unless you believe a thought to the contrary, but still, you are the awareness of a thought. If more clarity is desired there, simply “find” the separation between you and a thought.

[Javfly33]

3 hours ago, Nahm said:

@Javfly33 What if you had laughed knowing it was just a dream? What “prevented” that...what’s the worry? Maybe the dream is uncovering that for you to inspect and see through.

@Nahm No worry to be honest. I'm just really impatient for the "unfolding". I wonder what it's left to be seen through since everything seems pretty clear right now:I

I (as Javfly33) do not exist. Only existence exists. I guess it's a matter of acceptance and it takes time

[Nahm]

@Javfly33 Nothing. Acceptance is not a causation. Acceptance is itself you. The thought, ‘time’...slippery slope. But not really, because it’s a thought. Impatience is the result of a belief in a “future “...also just a thought. 

[Leo Gura]

The I is everything and nothing.

You can become the floor or the girl, but then "you" as an ego-mind would be dead. And you're terrified of that. So you don't go there unless absolutely forced.

The ego I is just a function of survival. You are too busy surviving to surrender yourself.