staying determined whilst enduring pain.

[The_Rig]

I didn't have the best childhood in the world, it still fucks with me to this day. but I have to remind myself that I'm not a kid anymore. i've done my best to better myself despite my strong beliefs in my hopeless outlook on life.                                                                                                                                                                                          Exercise, diet, family, friends, being a better person. a good person is what i want to be. i got so much bothering me it feels like i got 2 lives.  but that persistence to better myself never dies. and as i'm still gaining and discovering what i seem to like i never ever feel like i've gotten anywhere despite people admiring what I've been doing with my life. i feel the exact same way as i was, I feel like I haven't learned anything. i feel hopeless, i feel bad often, and i wonder how many people share that feeling.