Trip Report: Combining MDMA with Changa (DMT) – Unleashing raw, brutal Reality

[Gneh Onebar]

Holy shit… this one was tough and absolutely fascinating at the same time. I took some MDMA and after 4 Hours, when the effects took off, but I was still very relaxed, focused and kind of fearless, I decided to smoke Changa (N,N-DMT). Normally I am quite nervous having to deal with Changa, because it hits you super fast. However this time I was just excited about the idea of smoking it and was serious about going all in – I usually don’t smoke, so the inhalation of a lot of smoke during a short period of time is rather unpleasant for me.

I inhaled as much changa as I could in a few hits, my lungs were burning like fire (somehow I could appreciate this feeling lol) and I had to cough. The first thing I really noticed, was that the mouthpiece of the bong looked hyperreal. It sorts of wasn’t a mouthpiece anymore, but a strange, wonderful thing – in a way it became the gateway to the vastness of the universe.

Then I noticed large amounts of energy rushing through my body – it felt as if I were vibrating together with the chair I sat on – and a strange vibrational sound came up. I looked at the room around me and it was hyperreal. The room I saw, was still the room I knew, but it also was so much more, like the multidimensional version of the well known room. The world of rather fixed forms, where I normally live in, was shattered in an instant. It was as if a deeper reality, the real reality (maybe consciousness), was just waiting for this moment, where it could finally release its full potential, its wildness and brutal rawness. I am not sure, if this was the 'perception' of infinity people here talk about. I didn’t thought about consciousness to be this merciless (how else could it be ). I looked at my two friends, who were with me: They weren’t humans anymore, but mystical, wild creatures on a mysterious planet.

At some point I was in a time loop, where I saw a specific scene over and over again. But before the panic of facing insanity really kicked in, I could relax and was thrown out of the loop. Then it felt, as if ‘I’ was merging with the experience of my first breakthrough on mushrooms from over 1,5 years ago. It seemed, that I had entered the exact same ‘space’ and no time at all had passed by - like 'I' never left this moment.

The whole experience lasted more or less five minutes but felt a lot longer. The trip reminded me somehow of a scene from the movie “Constantine” with Keanu Reeves, where he beams himself into hell. Not that what I saw was kind of hellish or apocalyptic, however it had the wildness and the energy shown in the hell scene:

I also had to instantly think about the episode “Beyond the Aquila rift” from the Netflix show “Love, Death and Robots” @Leo Gura mentioned in his blog. That’s indeed a great episode about the mercilessness of facing truth - I get goose bumps watching this scene now:

In short: It was shocking but even more fascinating. I felt satisfied after the trip. 

These are the notes I took directly after returning (with the translation into english):

•  “ungezügelte, rohe Realität, das, was darunter liegt, entgrenzend“ --> unrestrained, raw reality, that, which lies below, ‚borderlessness‘
•  „Zeitschleife“ --> time loop
• „ungezügelte Formen und Farben, Bewusstsein, brutal“ --> unrestrained forms and colours, consciousness, brutal
• „verdammt viel Energie im Körper“ --> so much energy in the body
• „als würde mein Sein/Ego von kosmischen Kräften auseinandergerissen“ --> as if my being/ego is torn apart by cosmic forces

Edited February 15, 2020 by Gneh Onebar

[Leo Gura]

Good. Contemplate more what consciousness is doing and why.

[Gneh Onebar]

@Leo Gura  Jep, that's what I'm going to do. However I'm not sure, if N,N-DMT is very useful for contemplation work. Even if time expands drastically during the experience, it's quite brief. I think, it's useful for a peak breakthrough, but not so much for exploration in depth.