The Foundation Stone.

[Elton]

The past year I've been learning a lot about myself and about human psychology in general 99% from Actualized.org, its been frustrating at times and sometimes its been great. The ground has been dug deep and now it is time to lay the foundation. 

This post is an introduction to my journey to life, to this new year, I'm going to be 25 on 25th and I recomit to the following 

1. To be on the hero's journey 

2. To be on the mastery process

3. To remain a 100% committed and to take 100 percent responsibility of my life 

4. To start honouring the 10,000 rule 

5. To write this journal every month from 25th June till I die.

From today starts my preliminary preparations for 25th June.

The next update will be on the 25th

Edited June 17, 2016 by Elton

[Elton]

So today is the 25th the day I'm going to take full responsibility, used awareness as an excuse to let myself loose smoked a lot since last time I wrote the journal, didn't read bookd didn't exercise nothing much but all this will stop from now looking forward for the next exciting month going to do self actualizing work I'm done with backsliding going to feel the emptiness head on. Going to feel the emotions head on, going to lean into fear these coming weeks and months will be great ones.

[Elton]

Last month was going to make a big landmark for change, but things did not go the way I had planned, today one month has passed and I feel that even though I was lagging a lot in my goals I can let go of one month and learn from my mistakes, today I feel a new type of confidence and will just do it more of doing and less of theory and the next step will be more of being and less of theory but a lot of time to go for that, this month will focus on being a better Athlete in my sport freeletics, mindfulness will be one of my main focuses, sub conscious training ( funniness), life purpose exercises, values embodiment, think and grow rich embodyment. 

Because I really want the next month report to be positive, it will happen.

However I learnt a lesson last month, awareness is curative however it should not be used as an excuse and always listen to your own authentic voice and not the voice of society or family or friends. 

Stage 1 is just do it, it may take years to go to just be it but till then just do it and do it and do it and do it. 

 

 

Edited July 25, 2016 by Elton

[Elton]

Hey guys :-) whats up this is Elton from Actualized.org... I'd like to journal about my last mouth. 

It was a very good month, everything went well I smoked cigarettes only on Saturday and Monday, I smoked weed on Friday and Saturday but this time it was more consciously and I did enjoy the trip on Friday. So at least I stuck to my commitment for most of the time in the month.

I had a great exercise routine going was building myself up again after a month break it becomes difficult but you have to baby step your way back to the top. Next month I'm planning an increment in time i exercise. 

Meditation as usual every single day but its time to increase my session moving out of comfort will have to take place, doing the emotionally difficult thing will have to take place. 

I gave a interview and got selected and I'm getting more money than my current job but I don't want to take it its almost like a call centre job and it will take away my time.

The life purpose course is getting intense different ideas are coming up and I can't decide which egg to give my warmth... I hope I find it at the end of the course I'm almost there but I can also see that it might take more time but its worth it..

 

 

 

[Elton]

I've been looking up to 25 now a days so that I can write this journal its so exciting... 

Yesterday I tried using alchol to self actualize, fuckal experience all it does is gives your body a burn from the inside and relaxes your muscles, I was actually meditating on alchol yesterday...( alone with 100 ml) Using mindfulness

I've been trying to use night sitting after seeing sinzen youngs vedio on this forum regarding the same but I've always been unsuccessful 3 times so far..  I guess I will need some strategy to conquer it.

I've become a strategic motherfucker lately decided to spend one hour a week strategyzing.its fun doing that.

Exercise meditation reading and testing the waters is consistent. 

I will find my life purpose eventually. 

Happiness levels are also beginning to rise addictions have melted away but I did resist craving the whole week maybe thats why I had alchol.... But I was never ever addicted to alchol I just wanted to try if I could do a whole night sit under its influence, my assumption was wrong. 

 

 

 

 

 

[Elton]

25th october was the day i actually became an engineer. It was the first project i ever handled on site the 8 days on site was a huge learning experience i think i've gone up on the learning curve.

So many problems were encountered on site had to solve them on by one had to deal with a lot of my inner demons too.

by the end of it i upper limited smoked a lot of tobacco since 25th and i think i will stop now, yesterday after a long run of meditation i didn't meditate because i realized that the whole 8 days on site was a meditation.

the destination was not as sweet as the journey... at the end of it i lost my bag of tools and clothes too and i realized the concept of conditional happiness, even as i was failing during the installation of the machine i was i was experiencing unhappiness and when i was succeeding i was experiencing happiness and then at the last when i lost my bag i was experiencing unhappiness again truely an upper limiting behaviour.

all this year i thought i was in a wrong field but when i succeeded in the project it was like wow is this why i'm here ? why did i choose to stick in engineering even after failing for 2 years and even after working 12 hours daily for 8 days i felt tired only after the project was completed.

motivational monologues from public speakers were keeping me motivated i kept re framing that failure is good failure is good i'm growing i'm growing.. 

the experience was awesome and i think i will have to read napoleon hills think and grow rich again  next year.

i will also have to make top ten goals for the next year and find my zone of genius personality development and emotional awareness merged with my project. @MIA.RIVEL

when i was in college we were supposed to make projects and submit it i brought it and submitted it but now as i did the project on my own i realized that i graduated on 25th october and it was strange as i write this journal every 25th and i was thinking of what to write... today i took a day off and will e-mail my coach Mia .

[Elton]

25 th Nov I got a new job seems really magical how come I got the offer letter on the 25th?  Went for vipassna then it was amazing but I have been Upper limiting since then the next day I met with an accident and fear is become so intense I fear so many useless things can't maintain balance in my life addictions have come back to me with great power. 

I have faith that I will work my way back to create an extra ordinary life where I'm living to my fullest potential. 

Nect year is going to be powerful.