Lucifer archetype

[28 cm unbuffed]

https://bloguniversalfreemasonry.wordpress.com/2018/10/28/who-is-lucifer-part-two/

This article is mindblowing for me. Because that's exactly what happened to me (last two paragraphs).

There was this situation, where I knew I have to do something, I felt it and I knew it, I didn't know what would happen, but energy was so fucking strong, that I just knew. It was like following path of love and trusting God 100%. But I chose not to.

I think, if I would end up like Christ - I would become a psycho for everyone around me, my earth life would be over but I would transition from self to Self, so why would I care? But still - I chickened out.

The moment I chose not to follow this energy and my intuition I felt like this dark energy is taking control over me. I felt like I chose the dark path, the path of self, path of corrupted guru, path of Osho, let's call it that way. 

I know it all sounds deluded, but that's how I feel and that's really high conscioussness stuff, not sure if anyone here can understand what I'm saying. I was given an opportunity to get crucified and obtain Nirvana but I consciously chose not to. 

What can I do about it? Like - i fucked up Christ path, can I still follow, let's call it Buddha path to get enlightened? Can i get best of both worlds or will it always be 99% of each of them?

Ps. Is enlightenment really just death, you become nothing, not even an observer, just nothing?

Edited February 7, 2020 by 28 cm unbuffed

[Red-White-Light]

@28 cm unbuffed

1. Osho wasn't corrupt. Corruption took place around him.

2. These paths are more like systems towards awakening. You can't fuck up a path, it might just not work for you.

[28 cm unbuffed]

Yeah, I mean the rolls-royces and spiritual sluts stuff. 

There was this one guy that I was talking to, who's biggest hero is Christ and he told me something like - "following that thing is really fucked up and you just end your existence".

I told him something like "I still want to experience a lot in this life, fuck bitches, get money, etc". And he told me: "now you are going to truly understand what suffering is". I know what he ment - you can never fullfill your ego, your earthly desires. But I took the blue pill and I decided to eat that fucking tasty steak, just like Cypher.

I feel really fucking strange about all of that, really fucking strange. 

[Esoteric]

@28 cm unbuffed Very interesting article that came in perfect timing for me. Thanks for sharing.

[DoubleYou]

You speak like all of your choices have been made for you. Like there's no way out of this limbo state. Yet, suffering is here to teach you. And it has been teaching you well. Don't neglect any of this as something that shouldn't have happened, or shouldn't be. Whatever is, is exactly what should be. Otherwise, it wouldn't be. Simple as that.

You've searched for happiness in objects, with suffering as its result. What a great discovery! Your source of suffering has been revealed. Now what? 
What does this mean for you? Don't condemn yourself to hell just because of some small choices you've made in the past. (And where did these choices came from in the first place?) There's a reason letting go, or surrender, is always at the heart of awakening. 

The beauty of Awareness, or Christ as you put it, is that it's available anytime, anywhere, for anyone. It's prior to all of the bullshit the mind comes up with. Prior to any choice you could possibly make. Including the choice to reject it. Even that is allowed. And therefor, naturally forgiven. Can you forgive yourself? And can you see that it doesn't matter if you do or don't? You are already forgiven. That is what Christ / Consciousness is all about.

2 hours ago, 28 cm unbuffed said:

Ps. Is enlightenment really just death, you become nothing, not even an observer, just nothing?

This question exposes your deepest fears. Sit with that. I could tell you, no, enlightenment does not mean death, or I could say the exact opposite. Either way, it wouldn't change a thing for you. It would just put the mind to sleep for a bit. If you want the answers, sit with it. Again and again. All these questions are only there because you haven't found a compelling enough reason to trust it yet. To trust that which is. Or in other words, to trust yourself. And by the way, are you not already the observer? How could anyone ever take that away from you? All is well, my friend.

[Skin-encapsulatedego]

8 hours ago, 28 cm unbuffed said:

https://bloguniversalfreemasonry.wordpress.com/2018/10/28/who-is-lucifer-part-two/

This article is mindblowing for me. Because that's exactly what happened to me (last two paragraphs).

There was this situation, where I knew I have to do something, I felt it and I knew it, I didn't know what would happen, but energy was so fucking strong, that I just knew. It was like following path of love and trusting God 100%. But I chose not to.

I think, if I would end up like Christ - I would become a psycho for everyone around me, my earth life would be over but I would transition from self to Self, so why would I care? But still - I chickened out.

The moment I chose not to follow this energy and my intuition I felt like this dark energy is taking control over me. I felt like I chose the dark path, the path of self, path of corrupted guru, path of Osho, let's call it that way. 

I know it all sounds deluded, but that's how I feel and that's really high conscioussness stuff, not sure if anyone here can understand what I'm saying. I was given an opportunity to get crucified and obtain Nirvana but I consciously chose not to. 

What can I do about it? Like - i fucked up Christ path, can I still follow, let's call it Buddha path to get enlightened? Can i get best of both worlds or will it always be 99% of each of them?

Ps. Is enlightenment really just death, you become nothing, not even an observer, just nothing?

@28 cm unbuffed 
It’s due to your conscious choices serving your ego/self/devil/weticko, as opposed to serving the Self/God.  You are too selfish.  You can only have God-realisation when selfless.  It’s like having Christ’s test of temptation in the desert but failing.   
 

Not at hope is lost however.  The future is yours to create as you see fit.  The present moment is all there is.  Just get back on the horse.  You must over time reduce the power you give to your ego.  Eliminate everything you can to which is serving the ego.  Addictions, wrong actions to others etc.  The Yamas of Yoga and Noble Eightfold path of Buddhism indicate this.  It’s essentially purifying yourself before you can embody God-realisation.  
 

I described something similar on my one and only post on here, so far.

 

 

[zeroISinfinity]

@Skin-encapsulatedego Well I made it all alone and dog as guru so? 

Just spiritual practises zero philosophy and losing yourself within it. No concepts actuality (of Being) which is Infinite Love. 

[Skin-encapsulatedego]

@zeroISinfinity

I am not advocating empty concepts.  I am pointing to being selfless.  I gave examples of paths which illustrate selflessness.  

[Nahm]

On 2/7/2020 at 3:57 AM, 28 cm unbuffed said:

https://bloguniversalfreemasonry.wordpress.com/2018/10/28/who-is-lucifer-part-two/

This article is mindblowing for me. Because that's exactly what happened to me (last two paragraphs).

”Lucifer” is the “angel” which believes itself to be better than humans. It’s a lesson in realizing one’s own arrogance, in holding one’s self above everyone else. In humility, this is seen as a parable, rather than an “archetype”. 

There was this situation, where I knew I have to do something

That was never true to begin with. There’s nothing you have to do. 

, I felt it and I knew it, I didn't know what would happen, but energy was so fucking strong, that I just knew. It was like following path of love and trusting God 100%. But I chose not to.

Energy, is love. It is love that is “so fucking strong”.  That love, is this love, right now. It is always present, even when we are believing thought stories about Lucifer, “the past”, separate selves who “make choices”, etc, etc. All love. 

I think, if I would end up like Christ - I would become a psycho for everyone around me,

That’s a belief in an idea of you. A thought is only a thought. 

my earth life would be over but I would transition from self to Self, so why would I care? But still - I chickened out.

The moment I chose not to follow this energy and my intuition I felt like this dark energy is taking control over me.

There’s no such thing as dark energy. It’s love, which you’re believing to be “dark energy”...essentially...you’re listening to the intellect (fear)...to suppress feelings. 

I felt like I chose the dark path, the path of self, path of corrupted guru, path of Osho, let's call it that way. 

Nah, just still have yet to do inspection of beliefs. 

I know it all sounds deluded, but that's how I feel

Nah, that’s the thought story...beliefs...about feelings. Without believing the story, feelings tell an ENTIRELY different “story”. The True, Love story. 

and that's really high conscioussness stuff,

The intellect is sneakier than you have yet realized, and it is using existentialism as it’s cover up. There is no ‘high consciousness’ anywhere in this thread. Inspecting beliefs, and releasing emotion, and feeling amazing, is high consciousness. 

not sure if anyone here can understand what I'm saying. I was given an opportunity to get crucified and obtain Nirvana but I consciously chose not to. 

That’s just a story intellect is repeating, so it seems true. Feeling is telling you it’s not true. Arrogance is choosing to believe the thoughts, to “be right”, but doing so over & over, is suppressing the actual Truth, which is being relayed right now & always, in feeling. If these beliefs are seen through, then this identity for this separate self, “the one who could’ve had Christ consciousness, etc, etc”, no longer remains, and therefore, you feel great. Free. 

What can I do about it? Like - i fucked up Christ path, can I still follow, let's call it Buddha path to get enlightened? Can i get best of both worlds or will it always be 99% of each of them?

That is the sneakery of the intellect....”what’s another story I can believe”? “What’s another way I can keep from feeling”?

Ps. Is enlightenment really just death, you become nothing, not even an observer, just nothing?

It will never be any idea about it, ever. It will never be a thought about it, ever.

Apparently, this is very common when someone does psychedelics...but not daily practices, and the inspection work. 

 

[28 cm unbuffed]

It wasn't love, that's for sure. It was "trauma love" - the energy that pulled me to do something, because I HAVE TO, I SHOULD, because she wants me to. That's how my mind understood love, but it wasn't true.

My whole life I pulled sadistic girls, that wanted to use me for their own good, this time I broke the pattern, thank God.

Edited February 10, 2020 by 28 cm unbuffed

[Ero]

@28 cm unbuffed You'll grow more just by sitting silently with what happened to you, than going on with symbolism about "corruption", archetypes, paths and so on. This ain't really a "high consciousness state", rather an example of self - bias and how the ego corrupts glimpses. This is not even the tip of the iceberg of what you can experience. Precisely because you had that you reaction, you have years of purification and growth to go through before you can claim any form of "transcendence". 

Edited February 10, 2020 by Ero

[SickLuv]

On 07/02/2020 at 6:50 PM, Skin-encapsulatedego said:

@28 cm unbuffed 
It’s due to your conscious choices serving your ego/self/devil/weticko, as opposed to serving the Self/God.  You are too selfish.  You can only have God-realisation when selfless.  It’s like having Christ’s test of temptation in the desert but failing.   
 

Not at hope is lost however.  The future is yours to create as you see fit.  The present moment is all there is.  Just get back on the horse.  You must over time reduce the power you give to your ego.  Eliminate everything you can to which is serving the ego.  Addictions, wrong actions to others etc.  The Yamas of Yoga and Noble Eightfold path of Buddhism indicate this.  It’s essentially purifying yourself before you can embody God-realisation.  
 

I described something similar on my one and only post on here, so far.

 

 

isn't the biggest delusion of all the fact of separating the ego from god ?

[28 cm unbuffed]

I never felt so strange in my whole life. I'm reading Frankl's "Man's search for meaning" now and the part where war was over and they were free resonates perfectly with me. Like - I did everything that God wanted me to do, years of fucking suffering and fighing my fears, insecurities etc.

Right now I entered, let's call it "receiving mode", everything is fine, peaceful, I'm finally getting what I've always wanted and it's so fucked up, because I feel like I do not deserve it, like it's not enough, I'm thinking about myself like someone bad (Lucifier archetype, corrupted guru etc).

My fight is over and I can finally be happy and it's SO STRANGE, I can't just get used to that. 

What is this shit, I'm so confused.. 

Edited February 11, 2020 by 28 cm unbuffed