1P-LSD 100ug Trip Report

[PlayOnWords]

"Universe... Please provide me with a healing, loving, transformational experience. I am ready. Thank you."

Intention: Release emotional blockages/trauma

Empty stomach
Recently masturbated
Freshly showered

Intro
It's hard to recall exactly what happened, but I will try my best. Some of what I experienced I know there are absolutely no words for. Totally incommunicable. Nevertheless, let's begin... 

16:45 - Ingestion
After getting everything prepared, I dropped the tab. I was a bit nervous, coupled with giddy excitement for what was to come. To try and nullify any unwarranted apprehension, I stuck on some tunes and performed some of my best, and some of my worst moves. This worked pretty well and I felt more comfortable in my body.

17:00 - The Come Up
This thing came on like a speed train. Probably partly because of my empty stomach but also, it turned out to be the highest grade I have ever managed to get my hands on. Nearly all of my other trips paled in comparison to this beast of a tab.
I could just barely start to tell that it was coming, but I knew there wasn't long to go.
I set up my laptop with some gentle rain music and laid down on my bed, fully open and symmetrical.

17:15 - Arrived & Still Arriving
I start tripping pretty hard and it was only getting stronger. I wasn't too concerned, I was well ready for whatever was going to come, and the stronger it got, the more I naturally relaxed into it.
The visuals were like no other acid I've ever had in my life. Laying there with my eyes closed, I tried to stay present with the energy in my body, letting it guide me, whilst trying to remain vigilant not to be too distracted by the visuals. Waves of what felt like pure, perfect waves of air were washing over me, whilst I was seeing everything from a guitar's whammy bar, to naked women, casino styled stuff. All very animated. All this was accompanied with auditory hallucinations. It didn't feel like I was just seeing these things though, it felt like I was being them.
With that said, my inner dialogue was becoming conversations between people. An African mother playfully chastising her children, slutty stuck up girls gossiping, construction men bantering and many other versions of human interaction. This felt as though I was these people, and I was talking and using their mannerisms so fluently and effortlessly, not imitating, but experiencing that kind of person. I was aware of where I was and what I was doing in the back of my mind. But in the front, it's like I was taking a peak into other people's lives.

Anyway, I kept bringing my focus back to my body when the visuals and sounds pulled me out. I could certainly feel stuff rising, like little bubbles that started off in my stomach, then resided in my chest before coming to my throat. Then I'd spit out this puke-style saliva. It wasn't vomit, but you know that type of saliva when you have just been sick? Sickliva 

20:30 - Peaking
I laid on that bed for 3 and a half hours, but what felt like a lifetime. Periodically spitting out my Sickliva, laughing, grinning, shouting, moaning, groaning, and resting in silence (in terms of making sound with my vocal chords, auditory hallucinations were still present) with the experience. Mostly the latter. I also noticed my legs tensing up quite a bit and tried to relax them and keep my whole body in symmetry. Decided to take a break. Went for a cigarette, came back and needed some food. 

22:00 - A Warm Hello
It took me an hour and a half to have a cigarette outside, go to the toilet and get back into my room. I had listened to Little Wing whilst smoking, YouTube autoplay then shuffled to I'd Love To Change The World by 10 Years After. It was beautiful. Outside, I gazed to the moon. A half crescent, which smiled lovingly back at me.
Anyway, I decided after I had had something to eat, I would go back to laying down in perfect symmetry and see what would happen. So I quickly grabbed some slices of melon from the fridge and returned to my room.
Wow. I almost feel annoyed for even attempting to write this down. It is just beyond anything I could ever convey to you with symbols. I was munching on my 3rd or 4th melon slice. As I beared my teeth down onto this delicious, succulent fruit... There it was. 
In the space of a nanosecond my human existence vanished. It felt as though I went through a mini vacuum, one moment I was a human sitting there eating fruit, then gradually descaled into a caveman, then creature type feeling, then just this total primal, immaculate feeling.
And then I felt, and saw, but primarily FELT this sparkle of light. Like I said, I was no longer a human being in that tiny fraction of a second. I was that sparkle, and the one perceiving it, and the feeling of it all at once! It felt like God winked at me. It was playful, loving and intimate. Suddenly, I was back eating my melon, and for a second it was like I didn't even realise what had happened. Then I was like "Hold on. That was it. That was IT." I knew that my covering, my little identity had been stripped totally, albeit for a moment. And that was the "I Am" saying hello through me. I didn't go crazy or anything, like screaming and shouting "OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD" like I suspected I might do when I thought about what it would be like to have this kind of experience with a sober mind. I didn't need to. I just smiled and laughed, and laughed some more. Continuing to chomp down on my melon.
Then I just hung out with myself, not the ego Conor self that I usually feel at least a mild apathy towards, but with God. It just felt like a casual chill out with my friend, without fear or apprehension, and with total intimacy. It didn't necessarily feel like I was gone, but the bullshit stories I tell myself and the problems and fear I create were not present at all. Which made me realise, it's the bullshit stories CONOR tells himself. The mind-made phantom of Conor telling lie after lie, manipulation after manipulation, scheme after scheme. But I was just there. Just hanging out.

23:00 - Smooth Comedown
I knew the melon incident was the peak and after that I'd slowly be returning to normality. I was cool with that. I welcomed it in some ways. I was exhausted. However, I decided to give the laying down in symmetry another go. Just to make sure I had really done my best to be in my body and process energy there. I was there for another hour or so. I found an awesome ambient classical album which I will link below.
From here, I dabbled between eating, playing guitar and listening to Jefferson Airplane and marveling at Grace Slick. Slowly but surely, I returned from my trip. 

3:00 - Sleep
Showered again.
Massive headache.
Sleep. 

[Guest Bazooka Jesus]

Holy cow, sounds like I need to give 1P a try after all!

[PlayOnWords]

@Bazooka Jesus Fuck yeah, man. Forgot to tag you, sorry. Glad you saw the report. Can't even begin to imagine how your 400ug-500ug suggestion would have gone, maybe I can very gradually get there  I think next time will be 150ug.

[Guest Bazooka Jesus]

You sure it was only 100ug though? Sounds like a 250ug trip to me! Amazing.

[PlayOnWords]

@Bazooka Jesus That's what my source said. Seems like a fairly professional business too so I would think they know what's going into their product. Who knows? Could be other factors as well like open-mindedness and intention and stuff effecting what is allowed to come up in a 100ug dose. 

[StarStruck]

Does empty stomach make a difference? 

[Guest Bazooka Jesus]

@PlayOnWords  Well congratulations my man, sounds like you hit the jackpot

[PlayOnWords]

@Bazooka Jesus cheers dude! 

[wk197]

Wish I had that experience but psychedelics are hard to get, only did them once

[PlayOnWords]

@StarStruck@

I think it just made it come on really quick.

@wk197 where are you?