How could this possibly happen? Nothingness!!

[infinitelove]

Last night in my bed , I started contemplating nothingness. How am I nothingness? How is all of this nothingness? I asked . And slowly I was absorbed into this state. I started really to vanish and become nothingness!!. What!!. I was vanishing slowly and I reached the threshold where I am about to breakthrough. I was pushing and accepting but I couldn't. I couldn't take a breath. I was suffocating , at least that is how it felt. I couldn't push more.

What really amazes me is that I have not done a lot of yoga or meditation. But how am I offered this chance to enlighten ???

I have been struggling with mental illnesses lately and taking medication. Is that related somehow ?

[Preetom]

27 minutes ago, infinitelove said:

Last night in my bed , I started contemplating nothingness. How am I nothingness? How is all of this nothingness? I asked . And slowly I was absorbed into this state. I started really to vanish and become nothingness!!. What!!. I was vanishing slowly and I reached the threshold where I am about to breakthrough. I was pushing and accepting but I couldn't. I couldn't take a breath. I was suffocating , at least that is how it felt. I couldn't push more.

What really amazes me is that I have not done a lot of yoga or meditation. But how am I offered this chance to enlighten ???

I have been struggling with mental illnesses lately and taking medication. Is that related somehow ?

It usually comes when you least expect it 

Edited February 2, 2020 by Preetom

[seeking_brilliance]

Strictly speaking in story... 'you' become nothing every night, in order to become something else- the dream self (for nightly dreams). It's just that usually you are unconscious during this process. 

Although we might be talking about different things ?

 

Edited February 2, 2020 by seeking_brilliance