Real face of enlighment

[Erixoon50]

I think a few days ago I just awakened. I faced most of my fears I now I can see how stupid all of them are. I also realized that enlighment is not some heaven like place or deep meditation state. Enlighmemt is awarness of the present moment. It's literally omnipresense. Life is for me so smooth and effortless. I've realized how stupid and unnecessary problems of most people are.

All the party small talk

All the loneliness

Depression

Caring for others, social games and obligations( brothet, husband, fad etc)

I could never in my wildest dreams imagined enlighment to be that way

It's so smooth but and the same it's extremely scary

I don't even know for sure if I exist or not

I feel like I'm floating above the notions of life and death, existence and non existence

I dont know how far I can go on this path and where it will end

I dont know if I should go further in that road  its scary as fuck

[Erixoon50]

I am perfectly concious of everything that is happening in the room that I'm sitting in, every little detail.

I'm aware of how life runs on automation.

Everything just flows perfectly and it,'s so smooth

You dont have any control of any of your actions that you do

[Erixoon50]

I am speechless you can't express these things with human words

All rules and boundries are relative

Sorry for writing this in replies

[Spaceofawareness]

My advice would be, don’t get too attached to being in this new state. If you can, see if there is something enjoying this state, where there is enjoyment there will be grasping, especially if and when it ceases. This is a peek behind the curtain of being, make sure you learn from it, but don’t attach, try observe this state impartially so the ego doesn’t sneak in the back door.