TRIP REPORT - 1P-LSD: Huge Love Breakthrough... Massive change in my emotions

[billiesimon]

I want to start by THANKING YOU, especially @Leo Gura, for the amazing Love and Wisdom shared in this community.
Also, @Nahm .  A personal thank you, compassionate soul. May the flow of infinite energy always bless you.

As a second note, I want to say that I LOVE YOU. I passionately love you, I energetically and powerfully love you. Yes, I mean every single one of you, I literally love you all. We are all brothers and sisters in the Source of all there is.

 

Let’s start – Remember that the Source is always flowing and that your ego is chocking the endless and majestic power of Source from exploding in you – This is ABSOLUTELY my biggest insight!

 

Source is ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS CALLING YOU!!!! YOU ARE THE ONE NOT LISTENING!!
I LOVE YOU ALL and so I am confident that you will listen, in the end. Like I did today, when I finally SURRENDERED to the Infinite Origin.

 

BASICS of my own path

I have meditated for more than a year, done shadow work for more than a year, and studied metaphysics and spirituality for the same amount of time.

I have always had HUGE EMOTIONAL BLOCKAGES
I have always chased Love, but rejected myself in the meantime. Reality replied by giving me rejections from girls, and more pain.
My whole theme in life (I’m 31) has been only Love in the negative. Self loathing, self hate, self ignorance. And chasing others as a seeking of Love. Of course all of it failed miserably, and the girls who already appreciated me, I lost them too.

My most active and energetic chakra is the second, the passionate and creative one, and it has communicated to me all the time that I must wake up.

I’ve always been the nerdy shy guy, with no self love, a lot of empathy for others, but at the same time very stifled and incapable of relating with the world. Ouf of fear.
I’ve always been generous and kind, but in the past it’s been really really choked by ego.

 

1ST psychedelic trip – 1P-LSD

In my first trip I’ve had a huge shedding of tears and laughter. The biggest epiphany was the release of several limiting beliefs about myself and others. And the everlasting “channeled” phrase: “I Am Art”. In fact I have declared a lot of times I Am Art in this first trip.
Then my ego kicked back in, but no huge shifts. I’ve felt a bit more natural and positive after this one.

The big shift in this one was the need to better my meditation habit and make it more “liberating” and peaceful for the soul.

 

2nd psychedelic trip – 1P-LSD

No important shifts here. I have experienced a moment of brief and weak connection with infinite Eternity and Silence.

 

After a month, I had done some much seeking of spiritual material and set SOOOO many intentions to find my FREEDOM from my jail of self-hate, that I have decided to do it again.

 

3rd psychedelic trip – 1P-LSD

I AM LOVE!!!
I am the answer that what I’ve been seeking all my life. Love. I was seeking Love, and Love was denied to me.
That’s because I had to learn to LISTEN! You. Have. To. Listen.

I was the answer I was seeking ALL THE TIME!!!! I AM LOVE!!! I AM PASSION! I AM EMPATHY.
But, most of all, I AM LOVE.
I love myself, I love you all.
And now the scary part that I was denying myself all these years.
I FORGIVE THEM!!!! Those who did me wrong, I forgive them!!!
I CAN’T AVOID FORGIVING THEM!! I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!!! They are just unconscious like I’ve been all my life!!!

Every single human and animal is my brother and sister in blood. We are bonded by the infinite and eternal BLOOD of Source.

 

During the first phase of the trip I was still “myself” and I shed some tears here and there, and then I got mesmerized by my cat. He’s young and innocent, but in his innocence and curiosity, I’ve lost myself looking in his eyes for several minutes. And at some point, he immediately had those huge eyes of Eternal Wisdom. He was suddenly a mystery of the universe, hinting to me that he had the unlimited wisdom of Eternity. His eyes were huge and TIMELESS. He officially has 9 months, and he also has a huge bond with me, but he immediately shifted to TIMELESS EYES.

A cat of Eternal Knowing, like God was looking at the through this magical animal. And I erupted in shock “oh my god!!! Do you…. Do you…. (have human consciousness)? “

My cat was looking at me like he knew from forever and everywhere. He looked at me like he was the deepest depth of the Eternal Lifestream. The moment when I felt that DEEP STARE of wisdom onto me I literally gasped and asked him if he was aware like me, or even more. (of course now the cat is just a kitty with no wisdom at all xD)

 

After that became aware of the tribal drum music I put on on purpose before starting the trip.

At that moment my blood started to pulsate and my heart started to crack open.

I watched at my hand, where I have written for several weeks in a row “I am love” and “I am infinite”, with a huge amount of handdrawn hearts on the palms and wrist. I have done this for some weeks because I was seeking to find what self love was. And I’ve felt a lot of these drawings were giving me release.

 

I was looking at these writing on my wrist, and then my hands start to become and more orange and pink, orange, pink, rosey red, yellow…. Pulsating. Then I was looking at my hand and it became so BEAUTIFUL!!! The skin was moving like in tribal art, and the veins were colorful and deep red, and the writings were moving across my skin and they started to pulsate on my flesh.

“OH MY GOD, I AM SO BEAUTIFUL! I AM SO MUCH WORTHY OF LOVE!”
My skin and my flesh was ABUNDANT with passion, and art and creativity. Abundant with Love.

Those writing I have been doing on my body as a “random act of self love” now were singing at me that I AM LOVE, I AM FREE EXPRESSION. I AM PASSION.

Then I immediately contacted a close friend of mine, who’s also hugely responsible for this massive shift in growth, and told him that I am feeling all the suffering of the Earth.

At this point, I was literally crying a bed of tears, and I shifted to a dimension where there was NO EGO. There was no restricted Simon, there was only a pure hearted brother of you all here on earth.

I started crying “We are Love! Please, stop these wars!!! Stop hurting, I am hurting, I am hurting so much, please stop hurting each other, PLEASE MAKE IT STOP, I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!

Now that I’m writing this I am weeping, and I feel so strongly for everybody. THERE IS NO ENEMY!!! STOP, PLEASE STOP!!!!

“My Love, My Love is enough for everybody. I am Infinite Love. I am here to heal this earth. Nobody is evil, there is NO EVIL. I am Love and you are Love. I am here to tell you that you have to STOP NOW!!!”

 

And then I felt it, this HUGE ocean of Consciousness, I was somehow feeling it, but I’m still not aware of it, I just remotely sensed it.

And emerging from this sensing, my sense of identitiy COMPLETELY DISSOLVED for a few minutes.

I and the ONLY thing I was feeling was INFINITE ABUNDANCE. I AM HERE TO LOVE YOU ALL.
I HAVE SUFFERED AND HATED MYSELF FOR SO LONG, and now I AM LOVE.
NOW
I HAVE ENOUGH LOVE FOR EVERYBODY. I WANT TO GIVE MY LOVE TO EARTH, and heal all the damaged and lost, but ESPECIALLY I want to heal the “evil ones”. Because they are not evil.

They are our brothers and sisters.

They LOVE US!!!! And we. Love. Them.

There is no enemy, It’s all an illusion!!! Stop fighting!! You are killing your own blood!!!
THEY ARE YOUR SIBLINGS!!!

 

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After a long period of crying and mouring, I returned to my feeling of abundance and love for life.

Life is safe. We are here to ensure life on earth. We are waking up, because we are all siblings and we cannot forget our blood bonding.

 

Earth is safe.

 

Because my Love for it is eternal. We all love Earth. We will save earth.

And dance.

And sing.

And make love.

And smile.

And… war will be over. It’s our calling. We are here to save us all from our IGNORANCE!!!

INNOCENCE IS POWER.

ARROGANCE IS IGNORANCE.

 

 

I AM PURE, for an abundant child needs NO war.

Only through the LIE of separation and DIFFERENCE we are fighting each other.

We are Love. We promise you, that Earth is safe.

 

 

 

There is no evil power on the universe capable of stopping US.

Cause WE are children of Source.

 

 

I am sooooo… soooo happy now. I’ve never been so happy in my ENTIRE LIFE!!!!

We are safe, because we are Love and Wisdom.

 

That’s all, for the little and humble and ignorant soul I am. I appreciate your attention and Love.
By the way, attention is Love, that’s why negative thoughts manifest negative realities in your life

 

******** BEST RESOURCES I RECOMMEND (a part from Leo, of course <3 *********

 

Eckhart Tolle (on Wisdom)
Esther Hicks  (on Wisdom and the nature of emotions/vibrations)
Rumi’s poems – Huge mix of wisdom and deep love
I was an atheist, but I would totally say >>>> Jesus
Balance the exaggerated Love from Jesus with some Wisdom from Eckhart or Esther, or Leo (who’s more inclined towards wisdom, while I seem to be more geared towards love).

Read methaphysics. A lot. Understand reality and how the physical realm is just a projection, a MANIFESTATION of your own state of internal evolution.

Neville Goddard – Yes, I deeply love him. He was a pure soul enamored with God and with giving you the right to be YOU!!!! Read Neville!!!! He loves you so much!!!!! He has spent his whole life seeking metaphysics and God through manifestation and through service to others.

 

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I Love You All. So Much.
We Are all the same Blood.
This Blood is of the colors of the whole rainbow!
We are linked by this beautiful blood!!! Stop shedding it.

We All Love Us.

 

“What you seek is seeking you” - Rumi

Edited January 31, 2020 by billiesimon

[Nahm]

9 minutes ago, billiesimon said:

You. Have. To. Listen.

You got me so good. Right in the feels. God bless you, infinite love & light forever illuminating your path. Great share & thanks!!!♥️??

[billiesimon]

12 minutes ago, Nahm said:

You got me so good. Right in the feels. God bless you, infinite love & light forever illuminating your path. Great share & thanks!!!♥️??

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[Leo Gura]

@billiesimon Good! It's a start.

[zeroISinfinity]

Now we have to actualize it. OMG  ❤️ will go on ?. What awesome stuff is this. Hippies on the rise OMG. How brilliant this all is. 

[billiesimon]

12 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

@billiesimon Good! It's a start.

Thank you so much ???

This is just the first of a thousand dives into Source, I guess

To me it's soooo MASSIVE, Leo! ?

[Leo Gura]

It gets way bigger.

This was just a chia seed

[DreamScape]

I want a coconut