Hide & Seek. It's a prank.

[karkaore]

Woke up, drank a cup of coffee, popped 60ug acid, had a quick chat with my roommate about feelings, we were chatting about where they come from, how they work, what they mean ect. This turned out to be very profound. I got pulled into a loop of very pleasant chain of thought, felt like realization after realization of how love works. Body started tingling, ego-mind almost instantly shut off and I experienced one of the deepest love so far in my journey. Felt like home.

Some time later the feeling slowly faded and I went for a walk. Walking in a park, crossing with strangers I have noticed a mild anxiety and observed how it affects my behaviour, my state of mind and being in general. I saw how this anxiety was purely crated by my mind and what purpose it served - survival! It was very pleasant to see it for what it is as it instantly auto-fixed. The love poured over me again, I've started laughing because of how silly I was. Not a single anxiety symptom so far after that day.

Hide and seek. I used to love playing this game. Is it really appropriate to say "used to"?? This innocent walk has revealed how I am constantly playing hide and seek infinitely. When I am in a state of no-mind, swimming in that ocean of love and joy, I've noticed how i choose to get away from it. Feels like God chooses to put back the curtain and hide from itself. When I've hid from myself, I want to find myself again. This goes on endlessly. God is literally pranking itself.

Overall, I feel that I am going to transcend it at some point. The more I experience it, the more comprehensive I become. This process is so damn blissful. My karma is sliding off me bit by bit, I feel more and more.. Me. Lighter, gentler. Life is becoming more and more effortless.

Thank you for reading!

P.S. It very much surprised me that such a low dose of LSD gave me so much profound insight. I usually tend to overdo instead of underdo dosages. This was very pleasant experience. Integrating it for 2weeks now and still find more nuggets. Higher dosage is not necessarily better.

[Leo Gura]

Good work. Keep at it.