Predestination

[Canyon]

If every possible possibility will happen sooner or later, then what makes the actions I take now any more or less important than the alternate option? (Aka the better or faster option)?

And how can god judge me (aka how can he have the right to send me hell for something that he predestind me to do? 

Why does life try n keep us so sharp with such a Sharp edge or aka the pressure we feel from jist being alive, or such a sharp consequence for ignorance. I want it to be a bit easier to be happy while on the path; as to not feel so bad about figuring out the balance of yin and yang, trying to not move backwards while im not moving forwards, trying to think laterally, (still in the process of being unsuccessful btw). 

Edited January 25, 2020 by Canyon
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[Inliytened1]

@Canyon more or less is a duality and thus relative.  So from the Absolute perspective it doesnt matter.  What is more or less important is what is relative to you.   You're the one giving it meaning.   Meaning lives through you.

[Canyon]

Life is not completely what i make out of it, The weight of life terrifies, and forces me to reconize the need for enlightenment, I cant help but feel like a faliure at life and a waste of space every time I backslide. just want to know the truth so that I can finaly live life with unquestionable confidence. Is it nessiary to face life untill I can see it as beautiful?

[Canyon]

I cry because i cannot find truth