Abilify

[AryaBhata]

No prior history of psychiatric/recreational drug use. (apart from 2-3 weeks on zoloft). I developed depersonalization/derealization disorder in December 2016, and recovered completely by December 2018. What I'm experiencing currently is very, very different to anything I experienced then.

September 1st to 5th (2019) : Took 5 mg of Abilify (Noticed my confidence levels beginning to decline, slight depression/dread/panic beginning to creep in, creativity/cognitive abilities seemed slightly diminished)

September 6th to 15th (2019) : Increased dose to 10 mg (Symptoms listed above became worse, and developed severe restlessness)

September 15th to 23rd (2019) : Tapered over a period of 1 week. Restlessness improved but other symptoms became slightly worse

September 23rd to 30th (2019) : Depression continued to increase. On the 30th I started experiencing the worst case of depersonalization I've ever experienced. Severe depression, thoughts and emotions gone, could barely function cognitively. I'm a bit calmer now and the depression has subsided, but the main symptoms haven't improved still. During my previous episode of depersonalization/derealization I could read, think and function more or less normally. I'm profoundly gifted and could make it through a 300 page novel in about an hour. Loved reading, writing, puzzle solving, had very strong opinions, etc. Now my mind is completely blank. I struggle to have conversations (have started stammering a lot because I words don't come to my mind), read and generally do anything I was easily able to do before.

[Urgency]

what a concidence i take 5 mg of it too, make me feel restless

[Lelouch Lamperouge]

I used to take it for a week then stopped. I wonder if it improved consciousness or suppressed it for those who took it for long time? Because for me it suppressed consciousness 

Edited January 23, 2020 by Lelouch Lamperouge

[Nahm]

@AryaBhata

Between the knowing & feeling of your profound gifted ness, and what you are labeling “depersonalization”.....something transpired. What was it? (That something could have been something in the past arising now also).