I died

[Zega]

The topic of death has been coming up for me a lot lately and tonight (30th) I did just under 2g of mushrooms I had left over.
I had a light trip for the most part, not many visuals if any but did a lot of inquiry about decisions I have to make: life, relationships, things coming up.

At what I thought was the end, after I sat down and digested the trip for a bit, I had to pee and I was hungry too. First I smoked a little weed and collected myself. Some time passed and I had a feeling in my gut. I got up to pee and I started getting tunnel vision. Halfway through peeing my pants were slipping off and I fell over peeing on myself in the process. I climbed on the toilet and proceeded to die.

I had a feeling I was going to come back from this but I wasn't sure at the time. Vision started becoming starry and I could hear a sound like when I take DMT.

I also have some hearing damage in my right ear, I only mention it because I could loudly hear and feel a vein pumping in that ear. The things running through my head were all the things I've heard about death; including a Ram Dass quote. It was like a DMT trip overtaking me, losing vision and sense of existing. If I never did DMT this would have been terrifying, but it was actually kind of comforting once I was in that familiar psychedelic space. This was different though. I enjoyed it more after it was over and I was sure that I wasn't going to die.

Eventually I realized I was literally dying on the toilet like Elvis and had to get up to go ride the rest out in my bed.

I sat up gradually coming back, hearing was the last thing to return and it took its time.

I was hot sweating and then had shivers.

I ate a banana after.

 

It's hours later now, technically new years eve here, wide awake at 2AM wanting to document this down.

Edited December 31, 2019 by Zega

[Leo Gura]

Happy New Year!

How was the banana?

[Zega]

Happy new year! 

 

Oh man... 

Delicious ?

[tedens]

Happy dying we could say..