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[Meetjoeblack]

Hello, 

 

I'm from the ecky forum and it's dead there and my friend told me about this place. Here I am.

 

I don't know where to begin. I will try. 

I have had a lot of pain in the past. I am a bachelor. I was born in the nuclear family. Mom and dad and my sister. Then, one day, they died.

I went through a angry period. Why? 

My father will never meet my future wife or children. My sister will never be a mother, a wife, and a family of her own. I am single. I am a bachelor. Where I needed to learn game, pickup (which i feel shame for but, what's the alternative?) and acquire the courage to approach, my sister was just loved. I would gladly trade places. She knew how to live and love. Its my purpose to live a good life the way she did but was taken from this world. 

I have lost do much family and friends. I found eckhart tolle because of the pain. 

So, here begins my journey. I am still healing from my past. I am reading David Deida Way of the superior man. I am working towards the end in mind.

What would make it all worthwhile and starting here. 

I am working out 3 times a week. I started bjj. I am trying to learn to code solo (alternative to edu or a bc). I would like to start a family, meet a beautiful woman inside and out, and have 2 kids. In the meantime I am working on several things to get resourceful. I am in a transition process atm. I hope to get clarity in 2020.