I'm preparing for a solo MDMA trip, seeking advice.

[CultivateLove]

Hey, as the title suggests, I got some MDMA which I am intending to take in about a week. I'm going to take100mg which is quite standard.

My intention for this trip is to - To improve my relationship with others, improve my relationship with myself, and hopefully have a love awakening experience.

Some basic and potentially relevant information about me - I'm a 24 years old male, my MBTI type is INFJ, and my health is in quite a good condition, so I don't have to worry about the drug negatively interacting with any serious medical conditions or heart problems. I quit my job (which I hated) 4 months back, after having saved up a decent sum of money which I could sit on while I try to make a better life for myself, one where I do something I'm actually passionate about and allows more freedom in my life to do things like traveling and going on real psychedelic/meditation retreats/seminars which has been my dream for a long time. But to be honest, my life has kind of been on hold since then. A lot of time been wasted on procrastinating and being unproductive. I'm facing internal blockages like having difficulty to choose what exactly I want to do and if I'll be able to make a decent living from it. 

My previous experience with psychedelics in a nutshell - I've taken mushrooms a handful of times, LSD a couple of times, and MDMA a couple of times. Although these were profound experiences, and they profoundly altered the course of my life, they weren't done in the perfect ideal manner. I did put some effort into the set, setting and a couple of times intention, but it was half-assed. I have also done two Ayahuasca ceremonies (One two days, and one three days, so 5 days in total). The first one was life-changing for me, the second one not so much. 

How I plan to prepare for this trip ;

Health - From this point up until the trip, I will take excellent care of my health. I will eat healthy, get good quantity and quality of sleep, exercise, be in nature, go to the swimming pool and do multiple sauna/icebath rounds in a fasted state (Amazing for clearing out junk from your body, gives me this amazing "clean slate" feeling) and also some yoga/stretching to keep the body nice and loose.

Mental preparation - Regular meditation, I think loving-kindness meditation is quite fitting. Write down some things I would like to reflect and work on during the trip, like what situations I'm having difficulty responding to properly in my personal relationships, anything that "triggers" me, anything I'm holding against someone/haven't fully forgiven. anything I'm unhappy about myself like fears, anxieties, and shortcomings. I also plan on re-watching Leo's videos on Love and Self-Love, as well as some videos from Matt Kahn on love, both before and maybe a little during the trip.

Setting - In my room, with some cozy lighting and music. A day I have fully for myself and also the day after, so I can properly integrate the experience. 

So, what are your thoughts?  Anything to add? Any tips? Any advice? I would love to hear it 

[Flowerfaeiry]

MDMA for me is a very social drug. I don't like doing it alone and whenever I have I find myself going out or calling a friend. This is not to discourage you at all, just be prepared to find some humans to talk with

[MrDmitriiV]

7 hours ago, Flowerfaeiry said:

MDMA for me is a very social drug.

Yes! It definitely makes the mind focus on social aspects, even in a lone setting for an introverted guy.

@CultivateLove

For my next molly trip I plan to either write during the trip or record myself speaking, which should be great. Just return to massaging my mind's surface level knots, like social barriers and so on.  During peak experience some deep meta-physical aspects of reality, and after lube mind's most basic gears.

Maybe turn off the lights? Last time I had my lights on and though sight didn't distract like LSD would, dark room will make you focus deeper into yourself.

Would 100mg be underwhelming? I took 150mg and it was a perfect dose. Though I'm tall (but slender).

Don't focus too much on trying to direct the experience a certain way. Go with the flow and learn whatever it'll show you. Instead of writing down things to focus on, just contemplate/study about them the days before the trip. If the trip shows something you don't want, focus on breath instead of forcefully trying to get rid of it.

Also drink water, but not too much)))

May we see each other on the other side... (god realization)

I suggest music which won't distract you too much, something ambient like this: (download mp3 with YouTube ripping program)

 

 

[inFlow]

 

Please be sure to read this thread.

[inFlow]

I'll just paste what I wrote.

 

I have taken MDMA x3 times now. All the times were done with my wife in a room setting for our relationship, spiritual and self-help purposes. IMO it is a very very powerful tool in our work. Done safely it causes no harm, but you still must be healthy, if you have some serious heart problems I would recommend avoiding it.

120ug max, MDMA should only be in crystal form. Avoid pills like the plague. I would say that 4 trips is the max you should take in your life time, so be wise. Each time will be less and less powerful. Also take off 3 months after each drop. No dancing or any heavy physical activity which can increase your heart rate, you will avoid "heat stroke". Do it with your partner or a really good friend. Dont waste it in a party setting where there are dozens of people there distracting you. Dont waste it just by listening to music or watching something stupid. Do it for a short time, but be aware that you are wasting precious time. You do need to make sure WHY you are taking it. Done correctly you can wheap great spiritual benefits, mystical experiences are common. IMO self-love is almost the pinicle of what MDMA can offer. It can help you to accept yourself fully for who you are, even if you feel like shit on the inside. Also it may help you to open your heart and love for other people if you do feel hate for others. My tip would be to look yourself in the mirror and give love for yourself. Say that I love ME and repeat it till you can feel the love for yourself with all your body, you will feel like your body is vibrating with pure love and let it heal you. This sounds stupid, but you will understand if you do take MDMA and remember what I wrote.

Also you will experience a drop when MDMA peaks off, to lower that feeling of a drop be sure to have some weed with you. But be sure you have some experience with weed!! Time 2.5hours after you feel the effects, usualy around 1 hour after consumption. Then smoke weed on top. It will boost the trip and the drop will be A LOT smoother. You might forget to smoke it on top, then just smoke it after yiu feel it peak off. Good luck and if you have any questions just quote me in the comments I will answer all your questions.