I need to figure out what happened

[Ika]

Hi everyone, it's a bit strange story...

This is a very dark period of my life, lot of things are happening around me and not sure all of that will end.

I was very high and I had a conversation with a group of people and a lot of things were being decided for me by that time, I was already in a deep trouble and they asked me ''yes or no'' question and answering either yes or no would lead me towards two different biggest disasters of my life.

I was very high and I was having a terrible trip, I had no idea what to do or say and yet, I still said two words (does not matter what they were since you don't know the story). My answer shocked everyone, even myself, somehow it all got settled down and I avoided that trouble and the most strange part is that I do not know how did I came up with that answer. I could not think or talk properly that time, the words just came to me and I said them, it took me almost two weeks to figure out that this answer saved my ass and I've been thinking if there was a better thing for me to say and believe me, there was not. If I had an hour to think what to say and then answer it, there is no way I would have found any answer effective as that one and that words just came to me out of nowhere. 

I said these  words when I was almost unconscious and I am trying to figure out how did that happen? Hoping that somebody can tell me anything about it. If there is a part of me that smart I need to be able to use it more often ?

Please let me know what you think.

[Nahm]

@Ika Sounds like you experienced no-mind, this now, ... being. A break from the narrative of “the doer”. 

Notice self referential thoughts. 

Write the statements down. 

Notice in the thought, the written statement...there are two of you. 

Notice, you’ve never experienced being two - just One. 

Notice then, how “things just seem to work out for you”, without all the self referential thinking. 

This universe loves you, and wants only happiness and fun for you. 

Allow ‘it’ to become what you are wanting it to.

”What you seek is seeking you” Rumi