Returning to earth - The final and last return

[Highest]

I remember, my first time smoking weed. The first one to introduce me to spirituality was Leo's video, that one where he said you don't exist and so on. It fascinated me. Made me search for more, this thing called spirituality.

So I did and came over Mooji. I followed his meditation tecnique. For the very first time doing it, I saw a bright blue light and feelt intense peace for like 5 seconds, and knew there was more to all this. And indeed, it was...

Days after, I was thrown into the supernatural spiritual realm. Lasted about 9 months. Had fun there, realized the miracle of reality. Got the materialist, rationalist and scientific paradigm annihilated.

Continued with meditation and self-inquiry hardcore for 2 years. Became directly conscious and connected to God. Another year went by, and here I am now. I know fully well now the question I asked when I was a kid watching this beautiful butterfly in Morocco, who made this?

I need nothing more. Time now to be the unique wave that I am. Time to return to earth. Taking it all in, sensing and feeling it all.

Just like when I was in sleep. Watching the sunrise while smoking weed. Just taking it all in, becoming aware of the miracle of existence.

Looking in my loves eyes and feeling, seeing, becoming conscious and aware of her very soul, and becoming conscious that she sees and is aware of mine.

I want to go there...

I'm going there...

Breath.

Love.

Freedom.

 

Liberation....

 

?❤️

[Highest]

With that said, this day is my last day here. This time for good, for real.

Tommorow will be a new... Beginning.

No more smoking anything. Shit will get hard but I'm fully determined.

The same day I will meet my beloved. I won't look in her eyes and see myself. I won't look in her eyes and see The All, The One and Only.

I will look into her eyes, become aware and conscious -  there she IS. Aware, conscious, feeling, living, breathing.

Seperate, distinct, individuated.

As it should and ought to be. Indeed, as it IS.

I'm going back to sleep. This time, for an eternity.

Become the sleep itself, the sleeper itself. Immerse in it, feel it, sense it.

I'm coming back...

Liberation, beauty and freedom... Everywhere.

 

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Edited December 22, 2019 by Highest

[undeather]

Are you telling us that you plan to kill yourself?

Edited December 22, 2019 by undeather

[Highest]

8 minutes ago, undeather said:

Are you telling us that you plan to kill yourself?

 

8 minutes ago, undeather said:

 

 

Nope. I'm going back to life.

Feel my breath. Dream the highest dream, using my precious unique mind. Feel my unique existing ego. Feel my real body. Touch it, feel it's reality.

Feel another as the another that he or she literally IS.

Not go for this insanity, this egomananiac bullshit of literally killing my precious self.

[undeather]

2 minutes ago, Highest said:

 

 

Nope. I'm going back to life.

Feel my breath. Dream the highest dream, using my precious unique mind. Feel my unique existing ego. Feel my real body. Touch it, feel it's reality.

Feel another as the another that he or she literally IS.

Not go for this insanity, this egomananiac bullshit of literally killing my precious self.

Great, was worried about your for a moment! 

Enjoy your journey!

[purerogue]

 

4 minutes ago, Highest said:

 

 

Nope. I'm going back to life.

Feel my breath. Dream the highest dream, using my precious unique mind. Feel my unique existing ego. Feel my real body. Touch it, feel it's reality.

Feel another as the another that he or she literally IS.

Not go for this insanity, this egomananiac bullshit of literally killing my precious self.

Lets see how long it will last!  

You are making big claims for someone who is going to get to experience  not just ups, but downs that come with it, from different point of view. 

Edited December 22, 2019 by purerogue

[Highest]

3 minutes ago, purerogue said:

 

Lets see how long it will last!  

You are making big claims for someone who is going to get to experience  not just ups, but downs that come with it, from different point of view. 

Indeed, suffering and downs are invetiable. I'm not afraid of it, I'm embracing it. It's part of reality, part of myself.

Many cannot deal with it, they try to somehow end it.

I say, what would reality be without it?

[Highest]

The need to know has ended. Indeed, reality is a miracle, a mystery. Indeed, God exists.

The God who designed everything, created everything from nothing. Precision engineered it from scratch.

Gave me life and spirit, gave me free will. Not to escape from anything, not to become anything. Not to know anything.

But to embrace everything as it IS. To embrace Creation as it IS. To embrace yourself as you ARE.

To embrace another as she or he IS.

 

Full circle.

 

Perfection.

[Guest Bazooka Jesus]

2 hours ago, Highest said:

The first one to introduce me to spirituality was Leo's video, that one where he said you don't exist and so on.

Yeah, that's kind of like saying 'the first whisky I ever tried was the one that's got alcohol in it'. LOL

[Highest]

@Bazooka Jesus Yeah, but I don't buy into that bullshit now. My direct experience tells me that I surely exists. I won't take anyone's experience as authority over mine, no matter how much 5-meo you put your ass.

I exist.

My mind exists.

My ego exists.

My personality exists.

Yes, my body exists and is real.

Yes, even my brain exists. A miracle it is. I can feel it pump, move. Doing what it was designed and created to do.

Other people exists. They are seperate, distinct, individuated, special and unique.

And no matter how much Sam Harris you have watched, the Supreme God exists.

[Highest]

Feel the music, feel it entering your body. Feel the emotions, the feelings it causes. Feel the present moment, the precious now.

Feel your precious ego and  personality. Watch how you turn into a character. The greatest actor in existence. Flawless acting, to the point of doing it unconsciously and making it real.

Feel your precious body. Touch it, feel the sensations.

Feel the connection to your God. Don't compare yourself to God. You are not Him, you are and will always be second to Him. The Creator and Designer of all. Feel the undeniable existence of God. Feel the Godhood of God, feel the Godhead itself.

You are you.

GOD is GOD.

Breath and feel your breath.

Feel and feel your feelings.

 

Absolute full circle.

Absolute perfection, freedom, liberation.

Absolute...

 

Miracle.

[Highest]

Feel the selfish devil that you are. Feel the darkness within you.

Also, feel the love and Goodness that you are.

These two go togheter. Flawlessly, perfectly.

Feel it all.

This is how God created YOU.

No need to escape, transcend or change anything. The All-Good is Supemely Good, so Good - He created you with the free will to even stay a devil after becoming conscious of it. So Good, He even allows you to disconnect from Him after being directly connected to Him.

The ultimate supreme death will annihilate all devils, return you to your Creator. This is God's grace. For now, play. This is also God's grace.

Feel, be, dream, breath, live.

Acquire money, use them fully. Acquire stimulus, enjoy and feel it fully. Acquire sex, feel it fully. Acquire love, feel it fully, give it fully, receive it fully.

Come back to Reality. Come, come all of you...

Don't be afraid ?

[Guest Bazooka Jesus]

@Highest  The way I see it, there's absolutely nothing wrong with being completely engaged and absorbed in the game of life and viewing it as 'real' (whatever that means); the trick however is to constantly keep in mind that the game is just that - a GAME.

In the succinct words of Alan Watts: 'Man suffers only because he takes seriously what the gods made for fun.'

[Highest]

1 minute ago, Bazooka Jesus said:

@Highest  The way I see it, there's absolutely nothing wrong with being completely engaged and absorbed in the game of life and viewing it as 'real' (whatever that means); the trick however is to constantly keep in mind that the game is just that - a GAME.

In the succinct words of Alan Watts: 'Man suffers only because he takes seriously what the gods made for fun.'

No, I have to disagree. There is no need to try to make anything real - it already is as real as it can get!

I won't take a game of chess or Call of Duty seriously, it's indeed just a game to enjoy.

But take your life seriously my friend, it's precious, a miracle, one thing in a lifetime. You will die to your God no matter what you do. For now, enjoy Life.

Breath.

Feel.

Love.

Create.

Dream.

Have money and use it. Have sex and enjoy it. Love and love fully. Be YOU and be YOU fully.

It's all real, it's all serious. If it wasn't, if it was only a "game" you would kill yourself like you would in Fortnite.

 

 

[Highest]

God created this world as it ought and should be.

With money, so I could use it on stimulus. With women, so I could have sex rather than having sex with myself.

With a body, so I could feel. So I could sense. So I could touch and feel the sensation of touch. So I could listen and feel music. So I could see, see how an ant moves, how it carries tiny stuff, how it's designed. So I could look at a sunset and feel, sense and take it all in.

With a mind, so I could dream to infinity. Imagine, create in all possible ways to infinity.

With awareness and consciousness, so I could be aware and conscious. Aware and Conscious of all of this.

With a unique self, so I could interact with other individuated selfs.

With perspective, so I could perceive.

In a world, in a earth, within worlds, within earths - so I could move in it. So I could play in it, enjoy all of it.

From sleep to awake, from awake back to sleep. From escapism to embrace. From spiritual to human. From God-consciousness to I-consciousness.

Full circle.

Beautiful.

Magical.

Magnitude.

.....

 

Liberation. Pure liberation.

 

Edited December 22, 2019 by Highest

[Guest Bazooka Jesus]

"Now, this is the real question: Is the game worth the candle? If you think “No,” then you’d better commit suicide. That’s the logical thing to do. If—on the other hand—you’re not sure, then you’d better make up your mind. Because if you’re going to go on with the game of life and not be sure as to whether it’s really worth going on, you’ll make a mess of it. That’s quite certain. It’s like doing something evil, like telling a lie. If you’re going to tell a lie at all, you have to make it stick, and so, make it good. Don’t wobble when you lie, because someone will find you out and it’ll all fall apart, and it’ll be worse than if you never did it. So if you make up your mind that you’re going to do something evil, you have to have—like a golf swing—follow-through. And so, in the same way, with going on living at all: if you’re going to gamble, gamble!." - Alan Watts

[Highest]

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6 minutes ago, Bazooka Jesus said:

"Now, this is the real question: Is the game worth the candle? If you think “No,” then you’d better commit suicide. That’s the logical thing to do. If—on the other hand—you’re not sure, then you’d better make up your mind. Because if you’re going to go on with the game of life and not be sure as to whether it’s really worth going on, you’ll make a mess of it. That’s quite certain. It’s like doing something evil, like telling a lie. If you’re going to tell a lie at all, you have to make it stick, and so, make it good. Don’t wobble when you lie, because someone will find you out and it’ll all fall apart, and it’ll be worse than if you never did it. So if you make up your mind that you’re going to do something evil, you have to have—like a golf swing—follow-through. And so, in the same way, with going on living at all: if you’re going to gamble, gamble!." - Alan Watts

3 hours ago, Highest said:

 

Indeed. Gamble, gamble like never before.

Love, like it's your last day to love. Have sex, feel the stimulus, feel the body, feel the sensations, Feel Her...

like it's your first and last time.

Imagine, create with your precious mind. Imagine your future, imagine your next day. Make it happen.

Act, like no actor in existence can be above your acting. Put on a mask, lie, like you never put on a mask or lied.

live.

Breath.

Love.

like it's your last day...

Like it's your very last day........

[Highest]

I remember this women a long time ago. She had cancer, about 6 months to live. Careless, a bad girl, reckless.

I told her, "I promise you, there is nothing to be afraid of. Death is all good."

She said, "I don't care about it. Do you have any drugs?"

I said, "No, but I have money. We could buy some weed and smoke."

So we did, for the whole week. Sex, smoke - repeat.

She is now with the Supreme. But I learned something from here, from her beautiful careless recklessness...

I am reckless ?

 

[silene]

This is like pure poetry. 

[Highest]

10 minutes ago, silene said:

This is like pure poetry. 

That was my intent.

What fun is there in writing without making it seem like a poetry?

Life is a poetry. A magical adventure.

No point in writing about it, if not in a poetic way ?

No point in having sex, if not in a loving way.

No point in spirituality, if not in a hardcore way.

No point of returning, if not fully.

Absolutely...

For eternity.