Thoughts after a glimpse of enlightenment

[blankisomeone]

This might be my third post here about Thoughts. I'm new to all this, so I'm still at the level where I'm questioning my thoughts.

So, by meditating and contemplating for a while, you reach a point where something clicks and you just feel joy and peace... It's like you get it but you can't put your finger on it, you can't grab on to it (although wanting to cling to something and making it last is an ego move). So, after having a glimpse of... of y'know... of the Truth... or however the heck I can describe it... some thoughts come up that try to make me "wake up" when in reality it's doing the opposite.

So here are some thoughts that come rushing in as soon as the joy of Being boils up inside me during a meditation session:

• maybe its me just kidding myself
• lol so thats it? thats life? thats the most boring thing ever.. I mean, it's quite remarkable, i admit it... Good for you, God, for having created something so magnificient... but i mean... lol its pretty boring to just sit here...
• lol ur literally the most stupid person for being happy just sitting there... go do something productive with your day or you'll starve.
• everyone is going about their days working and getting stressed out and being depressed and those construction workers sweating outside with the sun beating down on them... and for me to just sit here and be happy is nothing but UNFAIR... so go get stressed out and miserable like everyone else, it just cannot be allowed for you to be happy when you don't even have a freaking job and still live with your parents at age 20, cmon, lets be serious here.
• this weird happy feeling, this weird joy that just comes up inside me for just sitting here... ofc it cant be real... ur not even doing anything, ur just sitting... wtf

 

this is just too funny. I don't even know what to do or how to express myself lol. words are stupid. They're hard.

[Nahm]

@blankisomeone Great ‘work’. ??