The End Of Seeking

[Raptorsin7]

@zeroISinfinity Right now i'm silver 4 but i'm getting challenger no doubt. It's part of my life purpose. First I get challenger, then i start writing guides etc. I want to teach people enlightenment through video games. People will listen to me because ill be a world class caliber player. I was also top 500 in overwatch so i'm very confident in my abilities to get challenger, and i'm god lol so that too.

Gaming culture is super toxic. Many unhappy people playing games, and they aren't even happy playing. I will teach them a better way to play. Will teach them how to use games to become happy by applying all this non-duality stuff to the game. Got a website going and everything, though I might have to change the name i think someone already copy righted lol.

Yeah i want to have more.  compassion for people. When i think about people's childhood, and what caused them to be who they are, it makes me want to cry. 

[zeroISinfinity]

Hey man 1000 times more selfish you say. 

I added infinite selfishness on dreamboard man. Top that. ?

[Raptorsin7]

@zeroISinfinity

I will top that. I was telling @Nahm i will be most woke person of all time. No one will be more free than me. 

Do you have any passions, hobbies etc? Life purpose is for spreading non-duality to the world based on all of our past experience and interests. For me it was video games, gaming, competition. 

[Raptorsin7]

I want to make progress with how I feel. I want to play league of legends, and be fully locked into the game and just love the experience of playing. It;s important to be detached from the outcome. Any outcome. If i go 0-11 or 20-0 it does not matter. That is not why i'm playing. I'm playing for the love of the game, and love for the world. I want to help to people. I want to teach people to be happy playing games. That's why i'm doing my life purpose like this. I do not want to be the best player in the world just for the sake of being the best, I want to be the best so people will allow me to help them. I will earn their trust through showing them what's possible. 

Detachment from the outcome. Complete freedom. Win or lose. I will not be shaken. I will not be different. I will do my best. 

[zeroISinfinity]

@Raptorsin7 To be Sadghuru, Rupert Spira etc? 

Have no desire. 

Oh "the world", be careful what you wish for. To be most woke person. 

There would be no more person left. 

(there is no such a thing) 

You are Unlimited Being and this thing is a dream. 

 

[zeroISinfinity]

Imagine this joke my man. 

God dreaming of being a monk and praying to God for his entire life. 

Infinite humour, Infinite Joke. 

It's all so hilarious. Really is my man. 

Epic joke. 

[Raptorsin7]

@zeroISinfinity Lol no those guys are dweebs. I do have desire. 

I understand somewhat what you say. But what is @Nahm doing. Does he have no "Desire"?

I think we both agree he is farther on the path than both of us. 

I want to help people be happy. All my life that's all i ever wanted, was to be happy and enjoy life because I just didn't enjoy it and i was always confused. The path is real. God is real. This stuff works, and brings real happiness. Now i know this for real, because i had real enlightenment experience, I know i'm god and I created the universe, not the I thought, but the thing prior to the I thought. 

So now i want to help these "other" people in the world be happy too. Video games was my main tool of trying to be happy, but i played in fucking backwards way that produced more suffering. So now i will teach people how to play games properly so they are actually happy and can become enlightened just by playing. Budhha used breathe to teach enlightenment, I will use video games.

[Raptorsin7]

6 minutes ago, zeroISinfinity said:

Imagine this joke my man. 

God dreaming of being a monk and praying to God for his entire life. 

Infinite humour, Infinite Joke. 

It's all so hilarious. Really is my man. 

Epic joke. 

It is kinda funny lol. But that monk isn't done, in my opinon he's just beginning on the path. Once you realize you are god, why continue to be a monk. The cosmic joke is on the monk because either he's too arrogant to see the joke that you and I see, or he has not yet found god and so he's right where he needs to be on the path to enlightenment. That's why I don't want you to be monastic. Whole point is to have fun and enjoy man, that's why we're here.

[zeroISinfinity]

Well @Nahm

is just awesome bet he laughs too. 

@Raptorsin7 No not monastic for that. Some deep Healing work and to accept Enlightenment in full swing and what it entails in it's entierty (still have my own bugs in head and resistances ) 

Way to awesome, it's just unbeleivable. But in Truth it is just full remembering and some sort of restart so to speak. 

As person (that game just....) was very self reliant, everything I done, learned gained skills, wisdom knowladge etc mostly all alone my own master type of thing. 

There is a lot I am "right"  to be shed and epic stubborness some arrogance and pride too. 

Also how I can be monk when I love sex? 

Edited February 29, 2020 by zeroISinfinity

[Raptorsin7]

@zeroISinfinity I am in similar phase. I have toxic psychology. I am basically a hermit right now haha, i do all my homework from home and i don't leave my apartment much. But this stuff is not necessary. Deep healing work is going out into the world. Helping others is part of the healing. 

Do you ever remember being happy as a kid, or was it all hell?

I had a happy child hood so for me it's rediscovery more so than first time. I always knew life was awesome, but my life wasn't awesome so i was like wtf this doesn't make sense. Now with enlightenmetn it makes sense.

[zeroISinfinity]

@Raptorsin7 To be  YOURSELF in a sense you lose self or egoic Conciousness so to speak.It's complete actual Selflessness. God has no self so that's why @Nahm is teaching you to lose "self referential" thinking.

Less self more ❤️ will raise up. More ❤️ raise up more concious you are. Because ❤️ is Source of Conciousness not "the brain". 

When you as self is gone all others are gone too. Because there is no relative aspect to point against so to speak. 

State of Union and Truth is "attained" and it will grow man Love will grow because there would be no self to "avoid feelings". 

Road map to insane levels of happiness. 

Will not repeat story about childhood. There is no Alex anymore. Now I am rich billionaire who helps humanity. 

[Raptorsin7]

@zeroISinfinity Ahh that makes a lot of sense. I want MYSELF to grow faster, and overtake these lame stories i keep replaying over and over. So what is the purpose of thinking then? I think @Nahm said thinking is to choose experience, because thoughts create reality. I have been using thinking to judge others, worry about past and future, and just talk to myself as myself lmao. So foolish.

1 minute ago, zeroISinfinity said:

Will not repeat story about childhood. There is no Alex anymore. Now I am rich billionaire who helps humanity. 

You are both. You are this alex dude who had rough childhood and overcame it to become rich billionare who helps humanity. I am also becoming a rich billionare who helps humanity LOL, bruce wayne type deal so excited. Don't repress your past, own it. It is part of your story. It is you.

[Nahm]

Nobody’s thinking. There’s one thought arising. That’s it. That’s the whole show. One of those thoughts might be about there being a thinker, but there isn’t, that’s just a thought. 

[Raptorsin7]

@zeroISinfinity Give me 1 billion dollars right now. You are unlimited. 

Can you answer this paradox?

[Raptorsin7]

@Nahm The thinker can be seen through. But there's an unconsciuos repititoin of thoughts with this dude, I, in almost all of them. How do i get them to just stop?

I want to use thoughts to create dream like reality. I want heaven on earth. But even though i want it, it's still coming along slowly. I want it to go faster. I know there' smore.

[Nahm]

@Raptorsin7 The thinker cannot be seen through because there has never ever been nor will there ever be such a thing as a “thinker “. 

Creating is noticing this. A single arising thought is precisely as it appears, a single arising thought.  

A single thought arises, “I am the thinker“, if believed, now everything that is creating is limited by this belief.

[zeroISinfinity]

Did removed that. It's not in your best interest. Be YOURSELF and all answers will raise up.

[Raptorsin7]

@Nahm What is the purpose of thinking then? How Do i use thinking to feel better?

@zeroISinfinity Do you understand how thinking works fully?

Edited February 29, 2020 by Raptorsin7

[Nahm]

2 hours ago, Raptorsin7 said:

What is the purpose of thinking then?

In this specific case, I’d say it’s to realize thought is limited, in that it is dualistic (all twoness). The realization all thought is opposites. Codependent relative distinctions. Transcendence of, or collapse of paradox (twoness) is collapsing back into,  Oneness. It’s the realization the seeking game is perpetuated by the believing of thoughts about ‘me’ / ‘others’, ‘past’, and ‘future’. 

As that is seen, from that vantage, “thinking’s” purpose ‘becomes’ (already was/is).....whatever you say it is. But that is it’s ‘purpose’, rather - it’s brilliance.  One thought at a time, from which to choose. The quality of it, the clarity and power of it, - of the appearing thoughts from which to choose - is not separate from feeling (not thought about feeling - not emotion)...feeling (sensation, or, that-there-is feeling),... intuition & ’the body as an antenna’, ‘known as’ a greater, more expansive love, understudying, and intelligence. Only relative factors, which are arising and appearing in unison with, “you”... “matter”. So go to the root, feeling. All thought is “itself”, relative, appearance.

2 hours ago, Raptorsin7 said:

How Do i use thinking to feel better?

’Use’ feeling to ’think’ better.

If you want to get wet, go to the lake. 

If you want to drink coffee, go to Starbucks.

If you want feeling, where can you go?       Relaxation, letting go, surrender, purification, love, compassion, understanding...? Isn’t it true? ...“Isn’t it so?”

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Do you understand how thinking works fully?

A you can not understand because the actuality is it’s a thought, rather than a separate entity. A thought is a thought, a thought can not be expected to understand, it is already itself infinity, just as is ’a rock’. Understanding ’arises’, of only one source, precisely as it commonly appears. Understanding is never appearing from a separate source.  

[zeroISinfinity]

@Raptorsin7To help you out a bit. 

Be careful of your expression and words you use since you are the Source. 

Could guarantee that if you stop judging criticizing hating etc all false if you let go of all of that your life will be amazing. 

I said to you it's easy for me to get most amazing wonderful life so to speak and that Leo for example and job he took he can't really do that. Because he has to deal with ?. 

Every judgement and critic he spills out backfires onto him.

All this enlightened people who help are de facto very brave. 

To really fulfill spiritual path it will beat you down and you will face literally everything including death, insanity etc. It is most demanding thing you can really do in life. 

So listen to @Nahm always say that with a very good reason he wants you the best because he is you.

I guarantee you will not face this situation but if it does happen. 

"Someone is raping your daughter" using this as example. 

Freely beat the crap out of guy. But do not create stories. 

Just to not fall into ? kind of traps.