Too scared to walk the spiritual path, what can I do to overcome this fear?

[actualizing25]

Hey guys, I'm 23 years old and I'm watching Leos stuff for a long time now. I have just watched his stuff and never took the practices seriously, just meditated a few times, but it was really nothing. The last couple of monthes I became really interested in doing some practices(really want to start with Yoga, Kryia and Kundalini). I have decided that I want to take the spiritual path and I really want to experience god. I want to see if theres more then just the reality given to us in which we are existing. I want to experiment with psychedelics aswell, but I think 23 is still too young, maybe when Im in my late 20s.

Now I have read many horrific stories here in the forum. People are experiencing the worst nightmares possible after their mystcial experiences. People are experiencing traumas, suicidal thoughts and there people who tried to kill themselves because they lost their mind etc. just real nightmare stories, it is really scary to read their stories. Is this really the price I have to pay when I take the spiritual path. Shall I really take the risk to experience these terrible states when I want to reach enlightenment? Is this a part of the journay or did these people just did somehting wrong?

After reading these stories I really dont know if I should go this road or just live a normal mundane material life. Im too scared to start a Yoga-practice, although I really I want to.

What should I do guys?

thanks

[Highest]

It's a ride, it has it's dark and light sides. But I would say go for it, you only live once as you. Why not put yourself and reality to the test? See what she can do ?

Edited December 17, 2019 by Highest

[actualizing25]

@Highest and risk to lose my mind and become suicidal? 

[Highest]

28 minutes ago, actualizing25 said:

@Highest and risk to lose my mind and become suicidal? 

28 minutes ago, actualizing25 said:

@Highest and risk to lose my mind and become suicidal? 

There is risk indeed. Depends on you of course, how far you go, your genetics and all that stuff. This aint no game due. But I know every human being wants to reach the highest, it's born within our very spirit. If you want the Absolute, something to shake your life, then spirituality is the way but it isn't easy from my experience at least. But go for whatever feels best for you. ??

[Ero]

@actualizing25 Enjoy life - make friends, start a business, travel, improve your dating game.

Work first on structuring your life. You're no where in a hurry. There's a very good reason of why you're scared. It may not be the time for you and that's okay - if you force it, might as well turn out as the horrific stories. 

[Sempiternity]

Speaking as someone whom had one of the nightmare hellish experiences of which you speak, the key is consistency and building habit. Do practices every day, be it meditation, kriya yoga, or even low dose psychedelics. Doing a little of a practice every day will make it not so scary, as you slowly start to build proficiency. Don't jump in the deep end (like I did), be patent and do a little each day, and eventually you will reach a level that produces a breakthrough experience, and you'll be ready for it because you put the work in to be ready to handle it.