Beginner's Meditation Journal

[Milos Uzelac]

I will put an entry tomorrow or tonight after awareness of thoughts meditation.

[Milos Uzelac]

1. 20 Minutes of Breath Awareness Meditation. 

Couldn't keep focusing on the breath for all of the duration got attached and fixated mostly on listening to thought dialogue and narration. Psychosomaticly I felt and I am feeling now a lot fatigue and a depressive state of psyche that heavily surfaced up that almost made me want to lie down and fall a sleep on the bed next to my "study chair," immediatly in order to numb it as I often am tempted too. Feeling of drainage has come to enwrap me afterward and anxiety since I have to run now to make it in time for my English class. 

Note: Should slowly incorporate Emotion Awareness (techniques from @Nahm Thank you for researching and posting them ?) meditation to slowly get to their root and some morning basic exercises or warm up after a meditation session. 

This all for that comes up to mind now though the burst of depression is inhibiting of thinking more clearly of what else can I do.