No respect/appreciation for woman (the feminine side)

[DrewNows]

1 minute ago, Etherial Cat said:

Was your mother the type of mom who was suffocating you with demands, complains, or asked for a lot of emotional support ?

No she gave into our needs, gave us everything, took on our responsibility and over worried 

[Lento]

Feeling awkward around women might be stemming from overrating them.

[DrewNows]

@Etherial Cat it’s always tough being the source of happiness for others..we are forced to find ways to escape, usually through imagination and or addictions. They call us selfish and ungrateful  to not cater to their needs even when it’s against our own happiness 

33 minutes ago, Etherial Cat said:

I find it quite possible that now, women who are expressing their needs and taking a lot of space, disgust you. Cause they threaten your beingness like your mum did.

Yes I think it threatens my well being because I still feel and believe that if they have their self expression and healthy sense of self then I cannot have mine too 

Edited December 11, 2019 by DrewNows

[DrewNows]

@Bazooka Jesus Is it possible to choose a new identity, a new perception and beliefs that creates a world/reality as cushiony as an Internet forum to interact with? 
 

@Lentoyes it’s going to mirror the self beliefs 

Edited December 11, 2019 by DrewNows

[DrewNows]

15 minutes ago, Etherial Cat said:

She has let herself down and pretended that you were the reason for it. She failed at protecting you from her unconscious behavior, and that has lead you to a tremendous amount of suffering

yes and I am grateful to have been given responsibility to take on such suffering. There is no place, no more room for blame, as I did this for many years and eventually had to forgive myself and her. I remember when I first spoke about it on the phone with her after it all clicked and I’d forgiven her/myself. She was very quick to take on the blame, but I told her she didn’t know what she didn’t know and that I wasn’t sharing this so she could help but so I would let it go. Now there’s just some thought patterns that play out that go against how I wish to feel, usually from self criticism and the feeding of fear  

[Guest Bazooka Jesus]

1 hour ago, DrewNows said:

@Bazooka Jesus Is it possible to choose a new identity, a new perception and beliefs that creates a world/reality as cushiony as an Internet forum to interact with?

Well, as soon as you have managed to transform into a confident, mentally stable and emotionally healthy person that’s endearing and fun to be around, then others will of course want to spend time with you and help you in any way they can; but don’t expect them to rush to your help as long as you’re still battling all of your inner demons. They might tolerate your efforts to change and perhaps even give you a few words of encouragement here or there, but very few will actively reach out and give you their full support.

When you’re traumatized, others will perceive you as weak and insecure; and a weak and insecure man might as well have the plague as far as women - and also other men - are concerned.

 

Edited December 11, 2019 by Bazooka Jesus

[DrewNows]

2 minutes ago, Bazooka Jesus said:

Well, as soon as you have managed to transform into a confident, mentally stable and emotionally healthy person that’s endearing and fun to be around, then others will of course want to spend time with you and help you in any way they can; but don’t expect them to rush to your help as long as you’re still battling all of your inner demons. When you’re traumatized, others will perceive you as weak and insecure; and a weak and insecure man might as well have the plague as far as women are concerned.

Yes the weak and insecure man is sick, not in alignment with himself and should only pursue the allowing of whatever is needed to regain vitality and shift into abundance. 

13 minutes ago, Etherial Cat said:

I'd be more worried about the stored unaddressed emotional charges, than the thoughts patterns. 

For many years all my dates had the same emotional trigger they'd eventually lead into, rejection. The most heart wrenching pain, shock to the core i'd sometimes have to dissociate from, this is why i feel paralyzed whenever in a situation to express affection for another, the ego trap