Forgiveness

[Pilgrim]

I became aware how I am still operating a lot from SD stage red. There is a part of me that is SO young.. it's like a toddler that I have inside of me. This toddler is so impulsive and doesn't really take on responsibility. I realise how much I have hurt people in the past with my impulsive behaviour.. and how much I was blaming others. Just very awful, immature behaviour. Never did I intend to hurt anyone on purpose... but it was just typical stage red egocentric behaviour. The more I become conscious of this side inside of me the more I feel horribly guilty and I am so sorry that I have hurt others and behaved like that. I try to have compassion for myself, but it's difficult. I feel very awful and as if I don't deserve all of the help and support others are giving me. I carry quite some guilt with me.. how can I forgive myself? 

[Alissa]

@Pilgrim you got to keep in your mind that it's a part of your past, and that those mistakes made you the person you are today. Accepting this part of you is very critical to cultivating self-love, because you got to remember that you are your best friend and no body will give you the love and the value you truly deserve if you don't give that to yourself.

Practically, practice the do-nothing meditation as one of its aims is to accept yourself in a more profound way. Beside that write down imaginary letters to everyone you've hurt (expressing all the apologizing words) ;this helps the guilty part of you to be freed and you'll take all this negativity out of your system. Good luck ?