DMT trip went farther than anticipated

Dlavjr
By Dlavjr in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God,
I've done DMT about 20 times in the last maybe 6 months since I first tried it. Last night, I was hanging out with a friend and she and I were smoking DMT. I did a decent amount at first (unfortunately I don't own a scale so I can't properly dose myself, I know that's a pretty risky and ignorant way to do a drug as strong as DMT) and I had a regular DMT with all the geometric shapes, nothing too crazy. However, the SECOND time, I actually smoked less than before, and as soon as I started inhaling I knew something felt different.  Suddenly the room started going red, and everything started trembling and the walls and floors rose around me, then it all collapsed. I was blinded by colors and shapes and suddenly it all became one, everything was just an infinite loop. I looked over at my friend, and I looked at what was happening around me, and it all felt incredible familiar, like I knew that somehow, some way I had seen it all before. I can't quite make out everything that happened, a lot of the trip is foggy now, but I vividly remember seeing indescribable beings and shapes and colors, and for some ungodly reason when I looked at my German Shepard she looked like a hellhound. The poor thing was simply playing with a sweater on the floor but on the trip it looked as though she was tearing blood and guts out of the floor. Towards the end of the peak it was just psychological hell, the floor was a pool of blood, and I could swear to you that I was covered in blood as well.  I'm very thankful that somebody else was there to calm me as I came down, but, can any of you make sense of all this for me? I've done a decent amount of self inquiry, meditation, studying enlightenment, but honestly not that much that I can really comprehend what happened. What throws me for a loop even more so, is that I only did a small amount the second time. The night prior, I did triple what I did last night, and it was intense to where my mind and reality became one, and there was no difference between anything, but this time I did so little and it felt like I slipped through a crack in reality and saw more than I was ready for. Is this normal? 
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