going on the path of mastery

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Hello.

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2 hours, of 100% focus a day on my craft. Or whatever I want to do.

 

MAXIMIZE FLOW IS THE GOAL.

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about to embark on my first journey on the road called practice.

DAMMIT THAT WAS SUPOSSED TO BE THE NAME OF THIS JOURNAL. NOT GOING ON THE PATH OF MASTERY, BUT GOING ON THE PATH OF PRACTICE.

 

anyways, i'm chill. deeeeeeeeeeeep breathe in. ahhhhhhhh.

 

Lean into the pressure

lonliness, tests, due dates, death, insecurities, time, ect.

You can kill 2 birds with 1 stone. Lean into the pressure, accept what is coming and use it onto traveling on the path of practice.

notes

1. Manage difficulty
2. experience of control

 

 

setup - bring all materials needed, clean desk -DONE

I've got a 2 hour plan. This will give me some time to check. To know my progress

TIMERS SET. READY AND GOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

 

1.5 hours total on the path of practice

today I had a fun time doing homework, I had just enough pressure, aswell as I leaned into it.

I completed quite a bit, but not enough to say I finished my goals.

Edited December 3, 2019 by Proactive

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Preparation for the journey.

1.  Set 30MIN GOALS - DONE.
2. Finish eating -DONE
3. Clean my table and get all supplies ready -DONE
4. close phone, turn on ad block - DONE
5. set temperature to 15.00 degrees. NOT 15.01. - EHHHH, 
6. set timers -DONE
7. visualize

 

we've got a short life. Let's not waste it, lets live.

get into the present.

See the colours, hear the keyboard. Ain't it all so beautiful.

 

So essentially I added more breaks into my studying. Breaks must be managed carefully. If we just want to feel good during breaks, then we may take an hour to recover. The only purpose is to shift my attention onto something else.

Big picture

why am I doing this? 

There's no reason, i'm just going for a walk on the path of practice.

What am I going to try to do today?

o i'm going to continue leaning into the pressure. Finding pressure when there isn't any.

o Aswell as be very strict on my break times.

 

Total time on the path of practice - 2.5 HOURS

not as fun, I got sidetracked by my sex cravings that I gave into. 

1. To flow requires us to surrender, to surrender our goals. Our whatever. After work i'm usually pretty much the opposite, because i've wasted 8 hours of my day.
2. What I seek in flow is perfection. We are already perfection. But at the same time, I am not perfect, according to society standards, according to external results, I can't read an entire textbook in an hour. Butt, I technically can. You know?

1.Releasing entails enjoying, suffering, feeling what you are feeling. And to just accept the consequences of whatever action you are taking.

2. is it possible to read a textbook and get absolutely all the information within it within an hour? YES. But it takes time, lots of time. To learn to do it.

You are perfect, but you are not perfect. You are headed towards becomming yourself........

idk. i'm a coo coo head.

Edited December 4, 2019 by Proactive

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so i'm a really competitive person.

 

I work so fucking much when there's competition. I do have a lot of confidence when it comes to competition,

I was lucky to have been an underdog so many times in my life. People in real life usually underestimate me.

Thought i'd use this drive for competition I have.

 

I'm going to see if I can be in competition with myself. With the same drive?

I'm going to be better than myself yesterday.

I really like this video. This is what my life should be like. It should have dragons and shit.

 

A'ight, i'm going to be better than myself from yesterday.

I'm going to be better than I was yesterday. I am going to be so concentrated, I'm going to go so far in the path of mastery.

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lean into the pressure