Brain visions

[Preety_India]

Just be real. Just be yourself 

 

 

Pray pray pray... There's nothing else. 

 

 

Prayers might help it. 

 

Make it happen. 

February 3 was the dp date last time 

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

February 25 Tuesday 

Day 23 of the no contact challenge. 

Day 9 of Implementation Days. 

February 2020 

 

 

 

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Recap 

 

 

Pre planning

Pie chart 

Tracking system... Sequence of codes 

Reward points 

Reward charms 

Implementation Days 

No Social Contact Challenge 

Activity codes

reward charms jar

Charms chart 

Activity blocks 

Sequence notes 

Activity classifications as Engaging/Useful or Random

Milestone Photo album and Milestone Jar 

 

 

[Preety_India]

       

How to start implementation day all over again? 

Refer to the pre-planner. 3 page Reference chart 

Create sequence notes, activity codes and activity blocks. 

Start right away 

Keep the timer as a reminder for the reward system

Reward points to be given 

Reward charms chart to be drawn. 

The tracking system will be represented by a sequence of codes in line in the order in which they were finished after a couple bunch of codes are done. Like example... T1, A4. S7. S4. R4. B2... Etc 

Create a pie chart in the end for future reference and record keeping. 

             

 

               

[Preety_India]

 

Remove text formatting 

How to start implementation day all over again? 

Refer to the pre-planner. 3 page Reference chart 

Create sequence notes, activity codes and activity blocks. 

Start right away 

Keep the timer as a reminder for the reward system

Reward points to be given 

Reward charms chart to be drawn. 

The tracking system will be represented by a sequence of codes in line in the order in which they were finished after a couple bunch of codes are done. Like example... T1, A4. S7. S4. R4. B2... Etc 

Create a pie chart in the end for future reference and record keeping. 

[Preety_India]

 

 

16 minutes ago, Preety_India said:

 

 

Recap 

 

 

Pre planning

Pie chart 

Tracking system... Sequence of codes 

Reward points 

Reward charms 

Implementation Days 

No Social Contact Challenge 

Activity codes

reward charms jar

Charms chart 

Activity blocks 

Sequence notes 

Activity classifications as Engaging/Useful or Random

Milestone Photo album and Milestone Jar 

 

 

 

13 minutes ago, Preety_India said:

       

How to start implementation day all over again? 

Refer to the pre-planner. 3 page Reference chart 

Create sequence notes, activity codes and activity blocks. 

Start right away 

Keep the timer as a reminder for the reward system

Reward points to be given 

Reward charms chart to be drawn. 

The tracking system will be represented by a sequence of codes in line in the order in which they were finished after a couple bunch of codes are done. Like example... T1, A4. S7. S4. R4. B2... Etc 

Create a pie chart in the end for future reference and record keeping. 

             

 

               

 

[Preety_India]

Activities which are engaging 

• Meditation 
• Deep breathing 
• Exercises 
• Friendly conversations 
• Reading 
• Journaling. 
• Music
• Entertainment 
• Cooking 
• Diet 
• Sleep
• Health related 
• Yoga 
•  

[Preety_India]

So my ex is trying to reach me again this morning and being very persuasive. Maybe he wants to wish me for my birthday. I don't know. I don't want his calls. 

He had stressed me out the last time he tried to contact me to the point of mental harassment. 

I have tried blocking him. But it seems he found another way of contacting me. 

Frankly I'm so fed up with this mess. 

I told him many many times that our relationship is over and I'm done with him but he doesn't care to accept. 

He told me to unblock him today. That's a load of bullcrap. 

I don't want to deal with this guy. 

Every time I let this guy talk to me, it's always the same bullshit, the same drama, the same begging and passive aggressive behavior, the same manipulation. 

I'm so tired of this. 

Hopefully this time he will get it that I no longer want him and it's over forever.

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

Now this can light up my day any day 

 

[Bill W]

Lovely clip. Made my day nicer. 

[Preety_India]

3 minutes ago, Bill W said:

Lovely clip. Made my day nicer. 

Glad hun

[Preety_India]

I'm so excited today. Today was a great day. I got stuff done. 

All I need is coffee and some sweet rolls. 

That would be perfect. 

I drank a lot of bournvita lol

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[Preety_India]

I had no idea what happened actually. 

I'm just trying to be ok 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I don't know but this weird dream that I got. 

Like it was a floor, a fifth floor of a building. There are bats there. This guy is wearing an apron. He changes into anything. He has a weird crush on me. 

He tells me to get into an elevator. He traps me there. Now he is trying to torture me but in silly ways. Showing me some ugly stuff, just throwing this scalpel in my face. I'm pretending like it's all okay but waiting for the elevator to make it to the ground floor so I can escape. 

He wants me to be his Guinea pig for his experiments. He is into human experiments. 

Finally I reach the ground floor. And I'm out. But there are bats on the way and I'm flicking my hair and just feeling elated that I'm finally out. 

Once I get out I'm not even trying to look back. Who cares. 

Then I woke up from the dream. 

 

[Preety_India]

Lmao she gave me a wrong policy number 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I need a bowl of ice cream.. Lmao 

 

And I forgot coffee. 

Wish I had a fireplace. It's so cold here. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

 

Keep a file for sequence notes 

 

[Preety_India]

 

 

@Derek White I understand you are trying to use a more nuanced usage of the term "manipulation". You can use whatever non-conventional definition you want to create, yet don't be surprised if there is confusion - as is happening in this thread. . . . If we are having a discussion on domestic violence and my definition includes things like showering and cooking (violence against microorganisms) - it will cause confusion, because that's not what people mean by the term "domestic violence".

We could have a conversation contemplating "what is manipulation?". We could have a conversation about the duality between "manipulation vs. non-manipulation". We could discuss degrees, interconnections and the deconstruction of the duality. That's a great discussion, yet not the context of this discussion, imo. Yes, there are grey areas, yet there is a general agreed-upon meaning of the word, as I cited from the dictionary above. In this context, bringing up nuances and subtle forms of "manipulation" is a distraction, misleading and can be used to justify and rationalize certain behaviors. 

For example, if I'm on a date with someone and she smiles at me, I might think "Ah ha, she is trying to manipulate me. It's ok if I do the same. I can lie about my job. It's all manipulation of each other". This is a sneaky way for the ego to obfurscate manipulation and rationalize/justify it's self-serving behavior at the expense of another.

  18 hours ago, Derek White said:

Idk what you mean by “energetic orientation”. I’m assuming it means mindset.

I mean... ultimately it makes YOU feel good. But I get your point. I still disagree with it. Which leads me to my next point.

This is hyper-focused on "me" and "you". That is certainly a dynamic. Yet there is a "higher" dynamic at play as well.

An energetic orientation is not simply mindset. That is too far into a thinking rationality. Direct experience is more important that analysis.

One way to think about it would be "calculating". A person is a hyper-self-serving orientation will be calculating during a date. For example, "Did she like what I said? Is she showing interest, or am I losing her? She twirled her hair, that's a sign I am moving forward. She said she like to travel, if I tell her I visited Europe, she will be impressed with me and think I am a world traveler. If I tell her I like her necklace, she might feel good and like me". That is a self-serving filter. That is one orientation. . . There is another orientation that is not calculating like this, yet based on your responses in this thread it doesn't seem like you have direct experience with this other orientation. You keep defaulting back to a "me" and "her" dynamic that is calculating to reach a self-serving objective. . . There is another orientation available.

  18 hours ago, Derek White said:

I think the right orientation or mindset should be transactional. If I’m not wrong you suggest a “grow with her” mindset. Well, “the grow with her” is also transactional because you’re expecting something of her. I think in terms of spectrums so all relations are transactions imo. Realistically the type of relationship you talk about requires a lot of transactions and most people don’t want those imo. 

That will contract a mind into a "me" and "her" transactional mindset. In SD, this would be considered Orange. I'm not saying there is anything wrong with that, yet it will inherently have quite a bit of interpersonal conflict due to two separate people each focused on meeting their own needs. I've been in many of these relationships. There is nothing inherently wrong with it, yet when one gets into higher-level relationships, these orange-level dynamics are very unsatisfying. It would be like the difference between drinking pure mountain spring water or junky tap water.

It is not about two separate people each growing. I said mutual learning, mutual growth, mutual support and mutual bonding. There is a mutual that is transcendent to the orange-level self-centered transactions. I'm not saying personal identities and desires are eliminated, I'm saying that a new mutual dynamic appears. Almost like a "third person" entering. There is "me", "you" and a mutual "us". Yet this "us" is not some line to help meet one's selfish needs. This essence of "us" is a tangible thing and ime is much higher essence/meaning/pleasure than orange-level "me / you" binary transactional interactions. And it's not even close. 

  18 hours ago, Derek White said:

I think the main point we disagree on is whether relationships should be transactional. I think they should be, fair and implicitly so. I don’t understand how it can be otherwise.

We are not disagreeing. I'm not saying relationships should be transactional or post-transactional. That would be like saying math should be algebra or calculus. It would be more accurate to say that there are different levels/maturity/depth/resonance within relationships.

In terms of not understanding how it can be otherwise, I would say the biggest factors include prior programming from family and culture of what relationships "should be". As well, the re-enforcement of this programming through cyclical thought stories, rationalizing and defending the programming. To expand and deepen, a mind would need to let go of the attachment/identification of the programming. This isn't easy to do and is a luxury in a sense. Most people don't have this opportunity. They live their whole life immersed within prior programming and never transcend it. This is often due to survival needs. Not just the survival of the body, yet also survival of the self construct (which is mostly prior programming). Letting go of this and allowing space for expansion and growth can feel insecure and threatening to a self construct. 

 

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My inspiration, my gurus who influenced my spirituality. 

Joseph Murphy and Gerald Gardner 

 

 

 

 

Edited February 27, 2020 by Preety_India

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