Brain visions

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This rudimentary little artifact is really working for me. 

All I have to do is use it with a timer. 

Yesterday I did a 20 minutes meditation session. Felt amazing. Hadn't done meditation in months. 

Now  I'm able to keep track of my time better. Yesterday was a good day. Productive. Got my tasks completed 

 

Yay.... And tomorrow is my birthday. So tomorrow is a cheat day. I can do whatever I want. I'm just going to relax with my friends and or Netflix lol. Just registered for Netflix. Let's see how it works or will cancel it if it's crappy. 

My boyfriend told me to cancel it yesterday. He said it was crappy. 

So let's see. 

He is going to come tomorrow and maybe wants to take me out. But I'm not in the mood to go anywhere. Too tired for that. 

I'd rather chill at home. 

 

Will update this journal in a few hours regarding the progress in making with productivity pie chart. 

 

 

 

 

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Yesterday I told him he is so sweet. He really is. 

 I think I'm falling in love. 

 

But this time be careful lulz. Don't marry a jerk

 

 

 

 

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February 20

Today is Day  18 of no contact challenge

 

Day 4   of Implementation Days. 

 

 

So today I'm going to use my rudimentary kit for productivity along with a timer. 

Yesterday I completed 1 goal. 

And successfully used my planning kit. 

This is finally working. 

 

My engine is running. Time to get going. 

 

 

 

 

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A cold coffee brew can  fix my morning dullness. 

 

I'm so grateful for another day. 

 

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Some day I'll sink into oblivion... I'll forget myself and become a shadow. A sadness will engulf me. 

Everything is not skin and bones. A heart beats from beyond the grave. A voice still remains and calls out through the thick wintry winds. It's a crackling of the soul... A soul that never got what it wanted. 

I have to let my shadows go and my love to take over..... 

 

 

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Found a technique to deal with it

 

 

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So my friend Sandra will be here after a few hours close to midnight for my birthday celebrations.. 

And I'm excited..

I just want it low key. 

The cake is ready. 

Hahaha. They call me Babloo at home, such a funny name. Sounds like bubblegum lololol.... I know it sounds funny kinda tomboyish name here but that's what my family calls me. 

They surprised me with this Blueberry cake. Nice one. I like how they have customized my name on it. Cute. 

 

 

I'm all excited for Sandra and Andrew and some of the friends of my family.

Without them, I'm a nobody. 

Thanks to my friends and family for making my birthday special. 

 

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February 21

Birthday 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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4 hours ago, Preety_India said:

I'm just trying to relax. 

 

Maybe distraction from me and me just going invisible might help. 

 

I wish so bad I was invisible. At least I would have peace. 

Invisible and deaf is the best combination. 

 

 

4 hours ago, Preety_India said:

Can't see and don't have to hear. 

 

 

 

Frankly it's been too long. I feel like a rotting log.. 

 

Everything is rotten anyway. 

 

 

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Feeling much better now. 

Today is time to just relax 

 

Netflix and chill lolol... But I'm not going to watch Netflix because it's boringgggg

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I don't feel like telling Pauline and Cindy that it's my birthday. They anyway don't give a fuck about me. 

 

I mean they are my friends. But there is always some coldness between me and them

They aren't warm enough to my taste. 

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This was an excellent resource on neuroplasticity 

 

 

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So far so good. 

Sandra thanks for making my day so wonderful. Friends like you is what I need. 

 

 

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Creative or life affirming

 

 

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Pull a pink card from the box. 

 

What does it symbolize. To me it symbolizes freedom. 

 

Being on your own and enjoying your own freedom. 

Creating your own space of comfort 

 

Edited February 22, 2020 by Preety_India

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Draw out the pink card......

 

 

 

 

 

Edited February 22, 2020 by Preety_India

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The asters shake from stem to flower

waiting for the monarchs to alight.

 

Every butterfly knows that the end

is different from the beginning

 

and that it is always a part

of a longer story, in which we are always

 

transformed. When it's time to fly,

you know how, just the way you knew

 

how to breathe, just the way the air

knew to find its way into your lungs,

 

the way the geese know when to depart,

the way their wings know how to

 

speak to the wind, a partnership of feather

and glide, lifting into the blue dream.

 

 

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