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If you can't be your true self, you can't live life. 

 

 


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Just because someone is helpful person doesn't mean that they are a good person or a compatible person. 

Often times a person's motives are hidden when they're trying to help you. 

 


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When someone wants you for the wrong reasons then it's an unhealthy relationship and it's a transactional relationship and not based in true love. 

 

That's why religion is important. 

 

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 :x    Tracking and rewarding 

 

:x  upgrade life skills 

 

 

 

 

 

 


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Don't forget to write activity codes 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


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Implementation day 1....this time I'm going to be serious about my implementation days. No more falling off the wagon or slacking. 

 

Full motivation this time. 

Day 1 

February 17, 2020. 

 

 

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Reward points for today 

40 points 

 

 

 


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On 2/3/2020 at 7:22 AM, Preety_India said:

 

No Social Contact Challenge. 

Day 1 

Month February 2020

February 3, 2020

Today I didn't log into my account. Resisted the temptation. Good job. 

 

 

 

 

So today is February 17, and it will be the 15th day. 

I lost track of this challenge. But it was still okayish. I did pretty good. 

 

 

So day 15 no social contact challenge. 

I did not login to my social media accounts. And I did not talk to any of my friends for the past one week. Which is awesome 

 

Finally making progress on this Challenge 

 


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My body is producing acidic components. 

 

 


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If someone doesn't let you be who you are and who you want to be then they don't love you. Period. 

 

 


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Time for self reflection 

 

I was thinking about the principles of karma today and I found that this is what karma means to me. 

Me and my boyfriend were arguing yesterday about karma and he said to me that "what will you say to a mom who has a disabled child, will you say it's her karma that she is suffering, that's why I don't believe in it." 

In my opinion he is having a false idea of what karma means. 

The whole thing that karma means that you're suffering because you did something bad is ridiculous and used by people to bully or demonize others. 

I think that the principle of karma is very different than what's the society tries to make of it. 

To me karma means the following :

¥:x¥.   to be authentic and true to oneself. No self deception. No pretending. 

¥:x¥    that you'll pay for your sins. You can't get away with something that you did which was wrong or immoral. 

¥:x¥  That Truth will always triumph. It will win. Maybe not in the moment but eventually no matter how much you hide truth will be out. It will get exposed. Your need to mask the truth is selfishness and you can't win against truth. It's your delusion that makes you feel that you are winning. 

¥:x¥ honesty is the best policy and honesty is rewarded by the universe. 

¥:x¥ if you leave the garden as it is, it will flourish in its way, maybe not in the best way but it will take its natural course if you leave it be, you let it be, you give it freedom, you don't impose your will on it. Thus you're neutral to it, but this is not a bad strategy. It still works. 

¥:x¥ now you decide to let the garden grow your way, that is you impose your will on it, you decide and choose and you force for things to happen so that you can profit, you are being selfish without realizing that you are selfish, your extreme desire to turn things your way causes the garden to perish or get destroyed for your profit. Karma means that you can't impose your will on the universe. It will backfire. 

¥:x¥. Now you decide to help the garden grow better but without any intention for profit or any motive but with a selfless purpose to give, assist, help, and your actions are stemming from selflessness, empathy and kindness and purity and generosity and benevolence. Just to give with no expectation. This will cause the garden to flourish and do better. And you'll get rewarded in the most unexpected ways. Karma means that your kindness will not go in vain, it will be rewarded and these rewards will be beautiful, as beautiful as your kind qualities. 

¥:x¥ having a clear conscience. Knowing that you never have an ulterior motive.. No bad intentions or no motives. You have a pure heart. Just pure good honest intentions. No guilt. No motive, no tricks, no strategies, no manipulations, no scheming, no tactics, no diplomacy, no politics. Just frank open honest pure good intention. Karma rewards a clear conscience by defending its virtuosity. 

¥:x¥ karma means the will of the universe will eventually win. And you can't help it. You can't stop it. You better accept reality and by not accepting the inevitable you're only making it harder for yourself. So learn to accept the will of the universe, the flow of nature. Don't fight it. 

¥ :x¥ that good intentions will always bring a good outcome and bad intentions will always lead to a bad outcome or failure. 

 

¥:x¥  with your selfishness you'll never succeed or flourish, you'll never accomplish anything good, in fact it will always result in failure. 

 

Beautiful painting of Krishna. 

 

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I reward myself 50 reward points for February 17 for all the tasks completed in time.. 

 

I completed 4 tasks out of my list successfully. 

 


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My first journal started with the intent to keep toxic people away from my life. I've come so far and made it through. The toxic relationship I had which I gave up in November has been such a relief. Unbelievable. 

 

Some toxic people can be such energy vultures, energy vampires, they can drain everything positive out of you, take you to ruination. 

But I have learned to stand up for myself and fight back. Nothing can stop me anymore. 

I will survive. I'll make it through. I have survived all the stalking, obsession, abuse, nonsense and sabotage. I will continue to survive and make it through. 

I tell myself everyday to fight back harder and push back harder, to live the life I want, to have freedom, to feel free. Don't let the energy drainers win. Achieve your fullest potential your dream. 

Live the life you want and on your own terms. Stop at nothing. 

You as a good person will have your struggle to survive and flourish and maneuver your way through the labyrinth of toxic vampires(energy vampires, toxic people) around you, and find your way despite their attempts to bring you down. 

Learn to say no

Learn to keep boundaries 

Upgrade people skills

Learn tactics to deal with people who cause problems 

Learn to not put up with crap

Learn to stand up for yourself 

Understand your self worth 

 


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It takes so much to even understand that self care is a priority 

 

 

 

 


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Any trust is bad trust if it is not earned 

 

This was the biggest lesson for me in the past 3 months. 

 

 


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Learn to leave people who do not add value to your life 

 

 

 


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I am trying to learn how to have more healthy and dependable people around me and cut out two kinds of people out of my life 

  • Toxic people
  • Wolf in sheep's clothing kind of people 

 

 

Try to be with people who will add value to your life and try to cut off people who will not add value to your life or who will take value away from your life. 

 

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February 18 

 

 

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February 18

Today is Day  16 of no contact challenge

 

Day 2 of Implementation Days. 

 

 

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