Brain visions

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All the tarot posts are between January 20 and January 30

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Provoking kind of a person

 

 

 

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February 14  Friday 

 

 

 

Feeling tired. Need to start it today seriously. Next event will be soon enough. 

 

 

 

 

 

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Yay weekend is here. I can finally do some of the stuff I needed to get done. 

 

Weekends are the best 

 

 

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Two things 

 

One is 

Live a clean life 

Get rid of the toxins. 

Second is 

 

Live a fresh life.. A clean slate start... 

Start with Positivity love and motivation. 

 

 

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I'm feeling really good since I've been having a full plate. When my plate is full, (not because I feel empty), it just makes me feel like there is something to engage my mind into to keep intrusive thoughts and bad stuff away.. 

 

I've found that work is the best antidote to depression and loneliness. 

If I'm feeling "emotionally unaccepted" or emotionally deprived, for example zero affection from partner, so whenever I'm feeling that, I found that work is a great escape. Getting myself immersed in work has made me feel less lonely.. It has given me a sense of fullness and pride and reduced the neediness I had..

The more work I do, the more I'm at peace with myself. 

 

 

I had this codependent nature where I needed someone to make me feel wanted, I need someone to laugh around me, I needed people, I was a people kind of person but no more. I wanted love and affection and respect and peace and joy. 

I never got that as a child and even as an adult I'm realizing that my relationships have heavily relied on me for support rather than giving me any love back or any form of support. I was treated like a cloth hanger, like a crutch. I was never respected. It's not because of my low self esteem but more because of not realizing that I need to set boundaries and keep moochers out.. No mooching!! Now I know better. I know that I need to keep people out who do not wish to give me the support I need but rather take something from me.. 

 

 

 

That loneliness creeps in when the plate is half empty 

 

 

Edited February 14, 2020 by Preety_India

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Note to myself 

Don't be a workaholic but immerse in work

 

 

 

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Self preservation is the key 

 

 

 

 

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Today feels like a clean day. Hint hint

 

 

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Not feeling great this morning. But I guess it's okay to not feel okay 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Switching mindsets can help. 

 

I found a big difference. 

 

 

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These days my philosophy is going to change a bit 

It's going to be a plate 

And my plate is going to look like a pie chart that will help me track down how much time I spend in whatever activities I do. Activities will have code words to shorten them. 

Also the activities that help me with my personal development are going to be called Engaging or Useful. 

The rest are going to be called Random. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited February 15, 2020 by Preety_India

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So 100 percent represents one full day from morning to bed time. 

In that, suppose I read something for 20 minutes I'll call it 

 

840 minutes a day.. 

I'll have a minute calculator 

So let's I spend 15 minutes in doing some task. 

It's going to be 1.7 % of the daily 840 minutes. 

 

3 hours will be 21% of the daily time 

 

 

Edited February 15, 2020 by Preety_India

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So next to the activity code I'll write the time or the percent of the daily time. 

So If I have been reading for 3 hours then I'll write that as 21% of the daily time, written next to it. The pie chart will automatically reflect that. 

The pie chart or full plate will show the shaded region occupying 21% of the full circle or pie. 

 

 

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I can create my own pie charts or use pie charts applications for this. Which I'm intending to do. 

 

 

Edited February 15, 2020 by Preety_India

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So I just created a pie chart for yesterday. It only includes major activities that I did yesterday but not all of them because this is just a trial chart to see how it will all work out.. 

 

 

 

 

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Sabotaging kind of piep

 

 

 

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Activities will have codes like 

 

A1, A2, A3, A5, T1, T2, T4, etc.. I will have reference manual or spreadsheet for these activities.. Activities will be tasks that will be pre planned.