Waiting for that million euros

[Strangeloop]

Last year I had this thought: I will send you a million. And I should be getting it before new years come. Now when I get it I'm supposed to go to this girl from sweden and be with her for a few years... In the meantime I should be depressed because I don't like girls I like men. And this will frustrate me. 

Sure there will be good times with her but eventually I'll have to leave her because of my sexuality being gay and such. 

I don't know when I get this million and I'm pretty sure I'll get it, I will be more focused on my relationship life. Everybody is telling me that I won't get it. I don't believe them.

I have to get a million because I made an agreement with God that if I'm gonna be gay when I have to have a million euros in my bank account. I guess I just want to be gay after a hard break up.(see my other threads)

Also I heard this saying: You plan and God laughs at your plans. 

What do you think about this whole certainty about getting a million?