Would like some other perspectives to this

[Mindfang413]

So it would be safe to say "god" or consciousness is existence itself, right? Its literally existence itself but i have to ask: why does existence exist in the first place? Is it so that there is not nothing? Does nothing have to have something to balance out? Does that make sense? Also has anyone else ever thought about this too? Its freaking me out so much. Its basically an evolved form of the question "why is there something rather than nothing?" It makes it seems like consciousness itself is only a function. And only serves to just simply exist. Is there more to existence than that? I have found it personally hard in my journey to feel love anymore since first thinking about this thought because it feels like love is only a meaningless function of existence. I know that sounds nihilistic and i appologize. Its just how ive been thinking and feeling and i wish to change it if possible.

Anyways, any thoughts?

[Inliytened1]

10 minutes ago, Mindfang413 said:

So it would be safe to say "god" or consciousness is existence itself, right?

Yes - and it's Infinite Love.

Its literally existence itself but i have to ask: why does existence exist in the first place? Is it so that there is not nothing? Does nothing have to have something to balance out? Does that make sense? Also has anyone else ever thought about this too? Its freaking me out so much. Its basically an evolved form of the question "why is there something rather than nothing?" 

Something IS nothing!  The two are identical.   All there can be is Existence.

 

[Nahm]

3 hours ago, Mindfang413 said:

I have found it personally hard in my journey to feel love anymore since first thinking about this thought because it feels like love is only a meaningless function of existence.

How does this thinking feel ?

Are you believing your thoughts, or letting them go, and listening to the feeling? 

[Mindfang413]

@Nahm

6 hours ago, Nahm said:

How does this thinking feel ?

Are you believing your thoughts, or letting them go, and listening to the feeling? 

Ok, its the thought that existence, life and emotion are meaningless that make me feel apathetic/anhedonic because i believe it to be true that theres no specialness anything. I cant even see the significance of consciousness. I think im just very mentally sick. The enlightened path has just made it so much harder as well but its the only thing that truely makes sense i guess.

[Nahm]

@Mindfang413

You’re well on your way. As you said - “it’s the thought that...”. Gotta let thoughts go. A thought is just a thought. What I feel you’re lookin for is the magic of living & creating. Consider...you can claim to choose when you go to the bathroom, and you can claim to choose to sit down, but you can not claim to shit. You could claim to push, but you can’t take credit for the actually shitting. The body just - does it. You don’t think about it, or ruminate, you just choose to walk there & sit down. 

You can choose to go upstairs, and you can choose when. But you can’t claim to actually be Making the walking happen. Legs just move, etc. You can’t claim to be operating any internal mechanics of the walking. It’s all being done for you. You get to just choose when, and where. 

So you are a walking, talking, shitting, choosing being. And there is a higher power at play, making it all actually happen for you. 

Write down what you actually want. When a resistant thought arises, when you get psychologically caught up on the “how”...remember...you’re not actually doing the shitting. You just choose, and shit happens. So start choosing bigger. That will happen too. 

[erik8lrl]

@Mindfang413 The answer to all your questions is Love. Just love, just be. 

Edited November 24, 2019 by erik8lrl

[Leo Gura]

9 hours ago, Mindfang413 said:

why does existence exist in the first place?

It is no different than it not existing.

It has nowhere to go, so to speak, and nothing else to be.

Anywhere it goes, it is nowhere and nothing.

From the highest POV, there is no difference between the universe existing and it not.

[Forestluv]

9 hours ago, Mindfang413 said:

why does existence exist in the first place?

I would first explore "what is existence?". I would start here, because if one does not have an understanding of existence, then asking "why does existence exist?" becomes counter-productive. For example, if I ask "why does druvqid exist?", I could spend years wasting time before realizing "What a minute. . .  what the heck is druvqid?". 

[Inliytened1]

@Mindfang413 we throw these words around like they are no big deal but when you truly grasp what is being said it will be eniightenment.

 

[Mindfang413]

I appreciate everyones advice and insights to this. After listening to and reading lots of things regarding existence and still not getting, i came back and reread everything here again and suddenly, i realize im thinking about it wrong. I kept think of existence and nonexistence as two separate things. When they are in fact the same thing, a natural process that is constantly changing. Dont know how or why it took so long for me to understand that.

I have a question. When people talk about love in the absolute form, is it more of a feeling of peace? That everything is right and happening as it should? Or more like that reality is a living desire for everything that is happening? Or both?

[Mindfang413]

@Serotoninluv

On 11/24/2019 at 5:13 PM, Serotoninluv said:

I would first explore "what is existence?". I would start here, because if one does not have an understanding of existence, then asking "why does existence exist?" becomes counter-productive. For example, if I ask "why does druvqid exist?", I could spend years wasting time before realizing "What a minute. . .  what the heck is druvqid?". 

I appreciate your advice. I suddenly had that question not too long ago "what is existence?" but i havent been able to make any concrete answer. Sometimes love makes sense as the answer then other times it doesnt. Mabye i just dont completely get it. Could i ask you what u think it is?