No Discharge December comitment till 2020

[Milos Uzelac]

Saw the posts on No Nut November and have to thank @youngshinzen for giving the inspiration and the idea and the rest of people that are doing it, but since I have decided to attempt not to ejaculate until the start of the next year I'll try to extend it to the whole of December. 

Reasons:

1)Need energy for studying for an exam and future exams in college in sociology.

2) Want to try simultaneously to set aside a time to accept the shadow (using the Daemon acceptance technique I found out from @Shroomdoctor which I am grateful for) of my porn habit, to reduce jerking off as means of calming my anxieties, fears and neurosis when they come up which Il detail here when I set aside time for it this weekend. 

3)To have more confidence with a girl I like in order to eventually try to become closer with her (she is religious and hard working and I want to demonstrate to her and myself that I am capable of refraining myself and not guilting myself for not having control and not focusing on my priorities) 

4)* Having more energy  to get out of my grandparents apartment and go out and start running at least in the morning until the snow falls or to exercise indoors and having the desire to meditate. 

Those who see it useful  feel free to join in if you want to extend trying not to ejaculate till New Years from now. 

I'll use the same note system of youngshizen of successful days of not ejaculating marking and intensity of need for it during each one. 

Motivation and vision not currently strong but lets try to see how it goes ?

 

Edited November 22, 2019 by Milos Uzelac
Grammar correction

[Shroomdoctor]

@Milos Uzelac I'm in on that commitment. I'm interested in your experience with that technique.

[Milos Uzelac]

@Shroomdoctor I will try it out on Sunday then I'll share the experience thanks again for posting it on the forum ?

[Milos Uzelac]

 

Day 2 1/10

 

Reason because I overslept a lot this day and decide to procrastinate my study, but felt passive and relaxed and not needy of any stimulation and consumption besides few hours of information from YT videos on Indo-European pagan and Vedic religions on Survive the Jive channel, downside avoided the work of meditating and exercising, work anxiety on its way tommorow this distraction will have its toll as is my tough to overcome neurotic routine. 

[Milos Uzelac]

Day 3 3/10

Too lazy and in a rush to write any synopsis of the day

Edited November 24, 2019 by Milos Uzelac

[Milos Uzelac]

Day 4 7/10

Day 5 3/10

Miss to note the last day because of YT distraction a more pressiant issue than this. Will start to journal the neurosis and selfish acts in order to remind to stop myself from falling and procrastinating behind in work again. Task getting up at 5 30 am to meditate, take a walk with my grandmother and start studying. 

[Milos Uzelac]

Day 6 5/10

Day 7 8/10

Day 8 2/10

Day 9 4/10