Strange Meditating Experiences

[99th_monkey]

Ive been having a strange experience thats getting... more pronounced.

i dont really have a specific technique i use ,but what would happen usually as i sit there either just letting go or observing thoughts, i've noticed that i go into this very dark place, where its feels like theres just a me and these thoughts, its very similar to right before you fall asleep (as ive done countless times ) but i dont fall asleep, and i dont notice the out side world really, and theres a space. almost like watching tv. i cant still get caught up in them and pull back but its not like its here. i dont really know how to describe it other then that. this used to take a while before it would happen (i chocked it up to being sleepy) now it happens very quickly,

and today i was mildly alarmed when i was done with my session and i had been obviously crying while it was going on. and didnt realize it. 

[abrakamowse]

I didn't experience what you are experiencing in meditation, but I had experienced that in a dream and while I was about to wake up. Once I had a dream where I was like energy, but I was alone.

I didn't get scared at that moment because I had an experience of no identity that scared the hell out of me. But after I began to learn about emptiness and no-self I began to understand more clearly.

 

Remember that is not you who is scared, your ego is scared of that experiences. And that experiences are preparing you to accept reality.

IMO.

[99th_monkey]

yea i wasnt scared in it, but when i pulled back, or forward .. i dunno.... but when "I" said "whoa" then the judgments came back, and then i noticed everything again. as opposed to not noticing...

thank you @abrakamowse for sharing

[Friend]

@99th_monkey What do you mean by pulled back or forward?

[99th_monkey]

@Jakeumz  basically ill call it my identity coming back in, my "me". its hard to describe, but thats the best i got

[Friend]

@99th_monkey Was it an internal movement that wasn't really internal but shifted back to where it was when you said whoa?

[All_Around_Me]

@99th_monkey It seems like you are entering subconscious mind or something like that. (since there are different thoughts, you and its very similar to right before you fall asleep), but I can`t tell anything for sure. Also pepole can cry while they are asleep and they also realize that they were crying only after waking up. But its hard to say, what actually is going on. Maybe you should just try not to think about anything at all while meditating?

[99th_monkey]

@All_Around_Me  that would make sense, the thoughts shift from external stuff like the dog barking, and whats going on around me. to who I am and character traits and more internal theme.

 

or maybe I am falling asleep and lucid dreaming. lord only knows haha