Stuck In An Endless Loop

[governor]

self-awareness and these types of things are starting to seem like an endless loop in my mind. I have accomplished / overcome amazing things in my life and especially in the past few years using self help style practices (I would call this self progress).the confusing part has become this... I can't tell anymore if I am making progress or simply becoming better at adapting to symptoms. does anyone here have any info about if it is possible to build new pathways in the brain by using self awareness style techniques? therapy has become a non-productive waste of effort for me because I disagree with so many of its ideas and tecniques.