Colour palette

[Vaishnavi]

Alrighty. I have an old journal here but the context and why I started that one is, well, gone and something that I believe i've transcended on some level (though not completely).

This journal is going to be an intimate little place for myself whereby I could express the person that I am through pictures, music, passages from my favourite books, artists that i have great respect for, anything that speaks to me, that has meaning to me (and might have some for you too!) 

Edited November 7, 2019 by Vaishnavi

[Vaishnavi]

(posting this from my last journal here) 

 

[Vaishnavi]

Inherent vs Actualised Goodness

I like this depiction of a child's idealisation of his parents, the helpless little creature has little choice but to believe (assume) in the "inherent" latent goodness of it's caretakers, regardless of the reality. 

I've personally extended this idealisation even in my teen years and now adulthood wanting and almost forcing myself to see the "good" despite the promises they would break, the "good" despite the lies and manipulations, the "good" despite the narcissistic tendencies. 

Does not mean I do not believe in inherent goodness anymore, I sincerely do and I know it's there, it's just that it's not always actualised. 

(Screenshot Image taken from The school of life videos) 

Edited November 8, 2019 by Vaishnavi
grammar, duh

[Vaishnavi]

be not ashamed of expressing thyself... 

 

[Vaishnavi]

[Vaishnavi]

I got my red dress on tonight
Dancin' in the dark in the pale moonlight
Done my hair up real big, beauty queen style
High heels off, I'm feelin' alive

(lana gets me) 

 

[Vaishnavi]

we have too much time, way too much time.. and most of us are still "busy"

 

[Vaishnavi]

[Vaishnavi]

“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing there is a field. I'll meet you there.

When the soul lies down in that grass, the world is too full to talk about.”

 

[Proactive]

beautiful images ?

 

I wonder what the first one is trying to say

[Vaishnavi]

22 hours ago, Proactive said:

I wonder what the first one is trying to say

you mean the reading man image?

I especially like how his feet and subsequently the legs seem to be wrapped in those light branches...

[Vaishnavi]

When I wake up early in the morning
Lift my head, I'm still yawning
When I'm in the middle of a dream
Stay in bed, float up stream (float up stream)

Please, don't wake me, no, don't shake me
Leave me where I am, I'm only sleeping

Everybody seems to think I'm lazy
I don't mind, I think they're crazy
Running everywhere at such a speed
'Til they find there's no need (there's no need)

Please, don't spoil my day, I'm miles away
And after all I'm only sleeping

Keeping an eye on the world going by my window
Taking my time

Lying there and staring at the ceiling
Waiting for a sleepy feeling

Please, don't spoil my day, I'm miles away
And after all I'm only sleeping

Ooh yeah

Keeping an eye on the world going by my window
Taking my time

When I wake up early in the morning
Lift my head, I'm still yawning
When I'm in the middle of a dream
Stay in bed, float up stream (float up stream)

Please, don't wake me, no, don't shake me
Leave me where I am, I'm only sleeping

(-beatles)

Edited November 28, 2019 by Vaishnavi

[Vaishnavi]

and then we sat for eternity and beyond, watching birds, gazing stars..

[Vaishnavi]

Google's Artificial Intelligence, is intelligent! 

I just wrote an intimate mail to a friend talking about my struggles with inner work and Google's AI feels like a legit person prying on what i'm doing under the garb of "helping me" by auto suggesting the subject of the mail. What freaked me out was just how accurate the suggestion was! 

All of a sudden, I'm concerned with questions of privacy and my personal relation with technology, media and the internet.

I'm not leaving the internet given the dependency, so, oh well... 

[Vaishnavi]

learning, curious, seeking

[Vaishnavi]

And we laugh into the microphone and sing
With our sunglasses on, to our favorite songs

And we're laughing in the microphone and singing
With our sunglasses on, to our favorite songs

Nothing's gonna hurt you baby
Nothing's gonna take you from my side

 

 

[Vaishnavi]

If you're going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don't even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery--isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you'll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you're going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It's the only good fight there is.

-Charles Bukowski

[Vaishnavi]

You can blame me
Try to shame me
And still I'll care for you

You can run around
Even put me down
Still I'll be there for you

The world
May think I'm foolish
They can't see you
Like I can
Oh but anyone
Who knows what love is
Will understand

 

 

[Vaishnavi]

@modmyth do post; would love to hear <3