NO PORN NO MASTURBATION Journal

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I will post daily updates on how my abstinence is going.

 

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Its 10 AM right now and I haven't watched porn or masturbated for the past 20 hours, I was at the gym and was getting horny just by seeing girls working out. I will follow through on this no fap journey today. and I will think of it as one day at a time.

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update: Day 1

Feeling very horny, my mind is rationalising jerking off without porn. but no I will not give in I will acknowledge that im a horny fucker and remind myself that im doing this because I want to get rid of masturbation addiction and to get all the benefits from nofap

Feeling very focused and energetic as well as calm. Idk if this is because I haven't masturbated for the past 25+hours 

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FAIL

I masturbated, I could not hold myself. weak....

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@Bridge to Infinity day 1 again

stating to feel more relaxed, motivated and clear, I just had a nap and wow the dream was full of life and very vivid. before I fell asleep my head started to have these really weird spots of pain. I imagined it to be like little clouds in my mind just tensing, that has now gone and I feel very alive. 

Could yes fap be the solution to my brain fog, lack of motivation, social anxiety, general feelings of neuroticism, and ADD?

sounds too good to be true, also sounds like wishful thinking. 

but I am here to see. I wouldn't be surprised if my life changed, because prior to this I was literally tapping up to 15 times a day. 

[Austin Actualizing]

It definitely helps my motivation, brain fog, focus, confidence and social anxiety. It didn't cure my ADD though lol. My longest streak is 7 months.

Edited November 5, 2019 by Austin Actualizing

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day 2 its not the end of the day;

feeling tired, I didn't get enough sleep I drank coffee.

But as far as nofap goes I still feel alive (this sense of aliveness and creativity I haven't felt for a l long time)

im gonna take a nap I slept only 5h last night.

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day 2

every now and then I get the instinct to just grab my dick and type pornhub. 

I haven't given in so far so great. im feeling much more assertive and social anxiety virtually doesn't exist. well not gonna lie it does but its so weak that it is over powered by a feeling of UMPH....

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Day 3

still going!

feeling sooo horny, im thinking about getting a prostitute for tomorrow, I just wanna have sex the urge is very strong. I have not given in to these cravings though.

Today was spent mostly at home and alone so I feel like that multiplied the intensity of my craving for sex and masturbation

Edited November 9, 2019 by Bridge to Infinity

[Austin Actualizing]

Channel that sexual energy into something productive. It will be harder to resist the urges if you don't stay busy

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Day 4

woke up with a huge boner.

my voice is becoming deeper i noticed, i feel very energized, and horny as fuck.

i did stroke my penis with coconut oil just because i wanted to see if i could get a boner and i did, but i didnt ejaculate or anything. So far so great, i heard nofap benefits just get better from here on. so determined to keep going!! 
i can get away with less hours of sleep it looks like and my energy doesnt take a hit. But it isnt something healthy to do. So i will sleep the full 8-9 hours i need tonight

Edited November 9, 2019 by Bridge to Infinity

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Day 4

Summary:

Its becoming easy not to fap, I am feeling more masculine and much more aware and focused In other words ALERT. I do get sexual cravings now and then but I acknowledge them and acknowledge that I just wanna fuck the shit out of my hand or someone, and then let that go and move on. I also think of it to be a "one day at a time" where I avoid thoughts like "oh im gonna be doing this for how long exactly?".

I for once feel like im actually maturing. This nofapp thing serves as an autocorrect in some aspects of life. This does not excuse me from missing out on personal development work like "Building Self Esteem" and "Meditation" and "Living Courageously".

What's great about nofapp is that it makes the things I mentioned above much easier to pursue. 

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Day 5

Just woke up from the night from day 4. not feeling anything strange or odd, just feeling calm and centred. I would always wake up feeling exhausted however on nofapp I feel fine waking up, its not enough to skip coffee though. 

I also remove apps like instagram and Facebook and download them when ever I have to use them, and if I am going to mindlessly use them I let my self go on there for 30-40 mins straight and afterwards get rid of them. I noticed that apps have a similar effect on the brain to Fapping, but in a much less intense way. This is the reason for me cutting those apps out. 

Update on day 5:

I just watched this video because I wanted to see what If I got horny and yes:

 

 

 

Edited November 9, 2019 by Bridge to Infinity

[Austin Actualizing]

Day 7 is usually when things get spicey  I usually notice a big surge of confidence. You are close  @Bridge to Infinity

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Day 5

RELAPSE!

I felt very very very fatigued today as well as very very horny, I was edging myself and next thing you know an explosive force was manifested.

Back on NoFap.

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Day 1

I feel very fatigued. Im starting to consider the idea of having depression, Im not sad or lonely but I might be having some sort of depression I have no idea! in which case nofap can do wonders here. I kind of fucked it up yesterday but ill go again, I really wished I didn't fap though because I would have made it to days 7-8 and apparently then your reset and fully charged at that point. 

[Vitamine Water]

Don't beat yourself up when you relapse, it's perfectly normal.  You're the one actually taking action to self actualize. If you only beat yourself up, you'll struggle even more. 

Know that there are millions of men worldwide struggling with nofap! 

 

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Day 2

Summary:

The day went by quite easily, no horniness, I spent the day outside and. Just a casual day I also got a workout in, ate healthy meals. Nothing special about today.

 

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Day 3

went well 

[Davo124]

you've fucking got this bro. I'm on day 33 after about 99 failed streaks over the last 5 years. I feel more in control. 

make sure you've got a life purpose, otherwise you're seed aint worth shit and you'll be happy to splooge. 

the idle mind is the devils workshop