Do I understand love or is my ego getting hurt? (Actual Text screenshot below)

[assx95]

The context is - We've been on dates but not in a relationship over the course of three years, regularly in touch. She stays far now, so it's long distance, if i can call it a relationship. 

I haven't contacted her since she said she wanted pure solitude, it's been 10 days. 

After i cried my heart out for losing her. I had an awakening that the time i met her last, i was loved by her and the universe, and that love was complete. And that i am a devil for trying to chain her to me. And that the least i can do is set her free. And let love find her, or let her find love. 

This is contradictory to how i still have desires of being with her. And how i feel hurt if i see her with someone else. My question- Am i forging my own path to get out of her life (in which case if i tried a little harder for her, she would be mine and now i wouldn't since i am going away from her)  or am i doing what i would have done anyway (an inevitable turn of consequences)? 

[Harikrishnan]

Burned?my ego said so. 

give her what she wants. Stay away from her meanwhile pour all the love that arises for her to yourself. 

P.s: Dont philosophize about anything if you cant embody it. Act your talk or dont talk. 

[assx95]

@Harikrishnan Yeah. I would agree. 

[Nickyy]

@assx95 You can find a lot of freedom from this if you're able to put the whole thing into perspective by living in the present moment, even for just a little while. The attachment seems so real at the moment , but I assure you that it's nothing. But you need to find out for yourself how trivial this thing is, so just become very present in the now. If you're thinking a thought aknowledge your thought, say "ok, this is absolutely true" and show genuine appreciation for your thought. Then "park" the thought by just resting your awareness in the present moment. 

Do the same with any feeling you become aware of when you rest in the present moment. Just show it aknowledgment and gratitude and then rest with it as part of this moment, now. 

Stay in the present moment and continue to notice everything that arises in the now. Sounds, smells, thoughts, feelings, sensations, your breath, the silence, the space between everything 

Just sit and the answer you need will come to you and you will know

[assx95]

@Nickyy Thanks a lot. I will do that 

[Ananta]

20 hours ago, Harikrishnan said:

meanwhile pour all the love that arises for her to yourself. 

I love this!❤

Yes, marinate yourself in self love

Edited November 2, 2019 by Anna1

[JoshuaBell]

Have some respect for yourself.

Stop wasting your time. You’re too attached to the idea of you two being together when the reality of the situation is that she doesn’t want you. She called you “kiddo” for christ sakes then asked for “pure solitude” which is like the most fucking space you can give someone. She basically told you to fuck right off. Consider it a blessing. She just saved you a shitload of wasted time and energy.

[JoshuaBell]

All of the time and mental energy spent pining for a girl that doesn’t give two fucks about you and made it clear to you that she doesn’t give two fucks about you could be spent working on yourself. 

Don’t do it to get her back or because you want a hotter girlfriend or whatever. Do it for yourself. To evolve and become a better person. Turn this seemingly unfortunate event into a catalyst for your own personal growth. Make her dumping you the best thing that happened to you, ever. Go on an upward spiral by investing in yourself. Don’t barrel downwards into drugs, videogames, food, etc. Giving into your chimpish impulses is probably the worst thing you can do. It’s like taking a massive dildo and sticking it up your own ass.

You should be the prize. Make yourself into an awesome fucking person to the point where you won’t even settle for someone who doesn’t think the same. You got lucky that life handed you this situation. A true blessing in disguise.

[assx95]

@JoshuaBell Thanks man, for putting it into perspective. 

[NoSelfSelf]

Thats worst you can do is to go all emotional and trying to reason with her...there is so much wrong in this picture that i think like me you will just need few years to understand and stop with all kinds of stupid stuff  that your mom and society programmed you with...

And its done bro this cant be saved anymore sorry

Edited November 2, 2019 by NoSelfSelf