Valuable just being?

[Khron]

Through the work & interacting on this forum, it's been revealed to me that I can't accept love or believe I can be loved and that nothing I do is ever good enough because I don't derive value from my being.

Could this really be right? It doesn't make sense to me. You create value. How could I be valuable doing nothing? Why would I be valuable doing nothing? It's ridiculous. This has to be self-deception. My ego is tricking me into being lazy.

 

[Forestluv]

2 hours ago, Khron said:

Through the work & interacting on this forum, it's been revealed to me that I can't accept love or believe I can be loved and that nothing I do is ever good enough because I don't derive value from my being.

That is a thought story being creating. We can live with a thought story like that, or we can de-construct it and let go of it. 

Regarding value: most people use "value" in a relative context. You can construct your own relative value system. For example, you wrote:

2 hours ago, Khron said:

You create value. How could I be valuable doing nothing? 

Here you say value is created. Based on this, not creating has no value. You can continue to build your model. . .  Is anything created valuable or just certain things? If I punch someone in the face and create a black eye, most people would say this is not creating something of value. What about creating videos? Well, if I created a video on how to build bombs, most people wouldn't consider that of value - yet from the perspective of terrorists it would be of value. If I created videos on DIY plumbing, it would be of value to homeowners, yet not of value to plumbers. It's all relative.

We could also say just being is of value. Yet this is relative as well. Last Thursday, I spent a couple hours sitting under a tree in nature, just being one with nature. Just observing life happen. That has value relative to me. I mentioned this to a co-worker and she was like - "Sitting under a tree for a couple of hours is unproductive". Relative to her, just being doesn't have much value. 

2 hours ago, Khron said:

You create value. How could I be valuable doing nothing? Why would I be valuable doing nothing? It's ridiculous. This has to be self-deception. My ego is tricking me into being lazy.

Yes, it is indeed a trick. It is the trick of conflating absolute and relative.

For example, right Now in this moment - everything is Absolutely Perfect. Everything is exactly as it should be. It just IS. All the ISness right Now is Perfect. Whatever arises Now is Perfect ISness occurring Now. . . Yet from a relative perspective, all is not relatively perfect. I've slacked off on my yoga and I've been gaining weight. I still haven't bought a plane ticket to visit my family for Christmas holiday and they are getting upset . . .and I've been procrastinating at work. . . 

The trick of the ego is to conflate Absolute Perfection with relative perfection. Something like this: "If everything is perfect as it is right now, I don't need to do anything. I don't have to do yoga or buy a plane ticket and I can keep procrastinating at work". 

Yes, this would be self deception.