A drop of rain

[Thalie]

Hi Everyone

I found this web site only a few weeks ago and I have been watching all the videos at a rymth that I can understand, grasp and digest.

I would like to share this experience with you :

Many years ago, I was driving alone, it started raining and was stuck in the traffic. I looked at a drop of rain on the widow in front of me and suddenly  ... all around me became like light white cloudy atmosphere. There was no cars, roads, buildings etc ... I fell madly, passionately In Love with that drop of rain. There was no distinction between that drop of rain and I. I was the drop of rain and the drop of rain was I. We were One. My ego took a blow. How could I fall in love with .. what ? A drop of rain ! How could the "I" or "Me"  be so insignificant as a drop of rain ? In one moment in time, everything seems so blissful and it felt like tasting only an infinite dusk or sparkle of the Nectar of God.  Then, by magic.. everything dissapeared. 

That experience has "stuck" with me. I cannot relate it to my surroundings as 1) they won't understand 2) Don't want to complicate my lifev. I have been asking myself "What the hell is this ?". Is it a vision ? Hallucination ? My imagination ? Insantiy ? Did I tap into something like altered reality ?

This experience happened only Once and I cannot even replicate it.  A part of me Yearn for this experience again but knowing that I tap only an infinite sparkle of it, I cannot imagine what it would be like to taste only a teeny weeny bite more ... It's kind of ... I won't be able to function in this physical world again.

It would be great if I can get ideas, insights etc ... to help me 1) Make sense of this experience 2) Move on and go beyond it.

Thalie

 

 

 

[Aaron p]

Hey, good to meet you I'm aaron. I've been on the path for about a year now. Self enquiry, kryia yoga, psychedelic retreats etc.

One thing I'd say to you straight away is this, the very fact that you've found your way to this website shows that you're path has started. Those experiences are very good your having. You'll learn to hear the voice of the creator more and more. Try not to focus on intellectual question and answer based thinking. Try to sort of feel what it feels like...this "thing" that you felt. It's kinda like falling in love, the more you think about it the more you interrupt it. Your thinking mind will not be able to progress in this work very far at all. You have to go with the feeling. But it's strange, counterintuitively...when you surrender the thinking mind, the thinking mind becomes more powerful! And dynamic. 

Yeah my recommendation is to listen to the voice and start your hardcore practice today. I'd start by establishing a concrete conceptual understanding of what self enquiry is meant to look like. Look at Leo's videos on self enquiry. Self enquiry and "neti neti" are the same thing. Different names. I recommend getting the kryia yoga book (private message me for info on how to get it). Then just do like 5-10 mins self enquiry, sat on a chair with your back straight and not leaning against the back of the chair. Followed by some kryia yoga. The yoga can be hard to make sure your doing it right. Just give it a shot and let it fall into place. 

 

My personal report on the path so far;

My favorite part of the change so far is, I am far less psychotic, I am more intelligent, wiser, more powerful, more fulfilled. And at times during peak consciousness I feel what your describing. For me it's just a sense of everything bows to me it's quite interesting. The most important thing is finding out what you are. I recommend safe and moderate use of psychedelics for a starter. It'll peak your interest, and you'll probably have a fun time on the way. Your eventually to a have to completely surrender logic and just *fall*, in *love*. There is nothing logical about love. It just Is. So....fall

[remember]

@Thalie  there is nothing like the first time, but the memory. some feelings some moments are magical and not repeatable, but if you surrender to the moment you can have moments like that again, if you connect to your surrounding in a intimate way. not only one drop, but also the way a drop moves, the way the wind is on special days, the way sun falls through leaves when you lie in the gras the way the clouds move, the smell of certain things, a yellow leaf in the cold you bring to your home, a plastic bag flying like a jellyfish in the air, a small piece of paper on the ground. there are uncountable moment`s where you can fall in love with the "insignifficant" it`s not insignifficant! it`s falling in love with the beauty of your sensual perceptions. falling in love with the ability to percive beauty in a very intimate relationship to that what is given through the divinity of the seemingly "normal" or "random" it`s a form of synchronicity, the art of the random the every day (not everyday but singularly this moment in time, fully) the ability to see what no one else notices, beautiful magical signifficant now. the world speaks to you.

instead of going for this forum i would recommend you to buy a good camera and start to see the world through an optical lense. i think the drop told you to find it again if you dare.

Edited October 24, 2019 by remember

[Thalie]

Hi Aaron 

It's true that I focus too much on intellectual question and answer. I am now conscious that my Thinking will not bring me too far and I will go round and round ... until I surrender. Somehow, I will have to find a way to shift my mind from logic thinking to feeling.

I am taking into consideration all your advice and try to do one thing at a time. ... I don't know much about psycdelics or kryia yoga for now. I will start to watch the self enquiry video and do the hardcore exercise first.

I had to smile when you said "a sense that everything bows to me" as several times, I had the same feeling. At that very moment, I have asked myself "Am I being funny" or Am I in a flim ?  Again ... too much thinking ....

HI Remember

When you mentioned "Optical lense", it reminds me of this experience :

Two years ago, suddenly there was a change in my "vision"... When I looked around me, everything was brighter, shiny and sparkling. It was more obvious with Nature (Trees, flowers..) which were like sparklng jewels and I could not held but stare at them for a long time as if I was seeing Nature from an optical lense. It's kind of feel ... that you have when you change your glasses for a higher prescription. I also felt that Nature was " speaking" to me and they had a lifeforce of their own. This lasted for a day and then back to normal vision.

Thank you both for taking the time to reply. Very much appreciated. Now I have to bounce into Action.