16 grams of Mushroom

[Harikrishnan]

Two weeks back i had one of the most profund mushroom trip. (I am having a mush trip every month and this was my 5th). It was fresh mush and method was limetek. It took close to 20 min to come up body load was high i stood near the window and was looking outside and trees pattern started to change so i went and sat in bed in meditation position.

first thing that came to my mind was everything i am doing was for getting more care.

I started to vomit(not literarily,  body movements was like that).I couldnt sit straight and fell down on bed and a alien like thing came inserted somekind of tube on head,  it said like it is taking away toxins from my body.  Visuals changed suddenly there was nothing and then i was falling into some deep hole visuals was like i being a paper falling down for infinity. 

My legs where moving uncontrollably, it was flapping. 

I dont know whether or not leo's video on reality impacted me someway coz everything he said in it i got a glimpse of like Everything is a story of mind,  parents and all are imagined by me. And in between i had a fear what if i die now?  I soon realized my ego is holding me down so i let go of fear and was open to die. When i let go of fear it took me to insight like you are always alive,  there is no one outside of you, oness with everything and leo, sadguru and everyone is my own creation.  

Slowly trip was coming down it took 4hrs and i slowly moved from bed and stood straight and walked near to window and looked outside at trees. At that moment the real mindfuck happened, i couldn't tell the whole thing that happened on bed was real or not. Was all the things that i saw and felt, imagined as i was standing near the window at beginning of trip. 

It was a profound trip.  

But there are some question that came to my mind after watching dangers of spiritual work

I am sure ego death happend, but why isnt my ego acting neagtively after the trip? Its cool, and thinks things i experienced will make me grow in other areas of life (money, relationship etc) it is thinking like so there is no one expect you so you could do and be whatever the fuck you like. (I was nihilistic throughout my teenage, finding no meaning in anything, now its different)

While my legs where moving uncontrollably and was flapping an insight came like how much pain you are putting on yourself by desperately seeking sex.  I think my energies are trapped in lower 3 chakras and i need to set my priorities straight and enjoy lower needs and slowly move forward,  instead of rushing the process. If it so should i stop my psychedelic once  every month plan? 

[Malekakisioannis]

@Harikrishnan 16 grams dried? What is the limetek? 

[Harikrishnan]

5 hours ago, Malekakisioannis said:

@Harikrishnan 16 grams dried? What is the limetek? 

Read it again to find whether it was dried or fresh ??

Mushroom soaked in lemon juice 

[Zigzag Idiot]

7 hours ago, Harikrishnan said:

But there are some question that came to my mind after watching dangers of spiritual work

I am sure ego death happend, but why isnt my ego acting neagtively after the trip? Its cool, and thinks things i experienced will make me grow in other areas of life (money, relationship etc) it is thinking like so there is no one expect you so you could do and be whatever the fuck you like. (I was nihilistic throughout my teenage, finding no meaning in anything, now its different)

While my legs where moving uncontrollably and was flapping an insight came like how much pain you are putting on yourself by desperately seeking sex.  I think my energies are trapped in lower 3 chakras and i need to set my priorities straight and enjoy lower needs and slowly move forward,  instead of rushing the process. If it so should i stop my psychedelic once  every month plan? 

I felt pretty busted out by Leo's video as well.

We can experience drastic changes in states of consciousness but the work of purifying the emotional body is what moves us in vertical stage growth. We've got bad software in our hardware among other things. IME

A lot can be done in just witnessing the present moment. 

Im going to consult the ICHING now.

[Harikrishnan]

28 minutes ago, Zigzag Idiot said:

I felt pretty busted out by Leo's video as well.

We can experience drastic changes in states of consciousness but the work of purifying the emotional body is what moves us in vertical stage growth. We've got bad software in our hardware among other things. IME

A lot can be done in just witnessing the present moment. 

Im going to consult the ICHING now.

Leo's video on danger of spiritual work was a blow to my heart. For first time meanwhile seeing the video i asked myself whether my journey to pursue Truth was genuine or not and i couldn't get a answer and i felt bad,  bad in the sense it has been decades of seeking for Truth and still i couldn't make my emotional body be there. But i am happy coz i now know, i cannot rush the process. Am planning on moving like a snail but i am moving and that is what matters.

Edited October 22, 2019 by Harikrishnan