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[Fibonacci]

Hi,

It's been about 3 weeks that I started the self-actualizing thing. I don't know exactly where to begin.

I'll describe what I do for the moment: I meditate for about 1 year now every day before bed, I discover that certain type of habits where ruining my life like stress on exams and on learning. Procrastination when the exams comes. Addiction to pornography, drugs (like cannabis). 

I started changing my habits: I have eliminate the cannabis addiction and almost pornography (it's hard for this one in my point of view...), and it's been for several months now.

I watch some videos of Leo a couple of time a week, I concentrate on the ''Curing Perfectionism'' video because I think that I identify some problems in there.

The problem is that I'm trying to be more productive on my student's life but I constantly failed for the moment: depression, fatigue and not enough good grade to level up in college.

I thought that it was a productivity problem but now i'm not sure. What to do? 

Is there a better direction for my searchings ? 

[Leo Gura]

Focus on one thing at a time. Baby steps when you're just starting. Pick one habit to install and master it.

[Fibonacci]

Ok, thank you for your tip. 

I'll then begin with a reprogramming of my habits and specially perfectionism. I understood that mindfulness is something essential for that (if i'm not wrong), then I'll concentrate on your meditation stuff. 

But I have another question: what is the other ''subprograms'' of perfectionism? I mean: what do I need to work on to suppress efficiently perfectionism (in complement of mindfullness)?