What Is Worth Pursuing?

[Jakob]

I will turn 32 in a couple of months... What have I done so far?

I have worked my ass off in the steel industry, days and nights, for seven years, I saved every penny expect food and rent for my crappy apartment. Economically, it was a very good deal. Was it a healthy thing to do? No, I quit my job for 4 years ago, and I still have issues with my physical health that I got from working too many hours, too little rest,  around the clock. My stomach broke down and I have had IBS since then. I also have joint pain and my body can’t handle too much physical exercise. My physical strength is nowadays my biggest weakness, my biggest obstacle, the thing that worries me the most. And I have been strong as an ox in my early twenties. It’s like I’m a totally different person now, and my ego has taken a HUGE punch in the face because of my physical issues.

I have lived in 3 different countries, and visited couple more. I have never been a huge fan of stuff, I once owned a car but I sold it a half year later, I like my bicycle better J. I have been in a relationship for ten years (until I was 30), we were the best friends ever and on the same mental level, but the physical attraction died of pretty fast. After we broke up, I decided to get the sexiest girl I could never imagine and have incredible, dirty sex with her. And so I did, that was fun for 6 months, but we were NOT on the same mental level. We separated.

I study economy now, first year is now finished, two years left. I decided to learn to play the guitar for a year ago. I have been playing for one hour a day since then. I quite like it, but sitting and playing for 30-60 minutes a day always gives me backpain, and that makes the practice not as enjoyable as it could be. I have been meditating daily for 2 years now, that’s something I really like, sometimes it feels so good that I get tears in my eyes.

The main focus has always been ME! Fuck everyone else, take it leave it, like me or not, the only thing that matters is me. I have been getting this odd feeling that the only external things that is left worth pursuing for me in “the external world” is

• to start my own company and make just enough cash every month to get food on the table and a roof over my head, my body can’t handle loads of work anyways so it’s an easy decision.
• find a cute and intelligent girl, try my very best to give her my unconditional love (this will be one of the hardest things for me to do, but it feels like my motivation now comes from a totally different place compared to before)  instead of just focusing on myself (it feels like I’m done with that), make the relationship a priority instead of just letting it be, and finally, after 5-10 years (hopefully I found the right girl and therefore decided to keep her), to become a proud father, and spend as much time as possible with the child growing up, just trying my best to give the child and her mother as much love and caring as possible.  
• 1 hour of light exercise (walking/bicycling) per day, necessary  to keep my body functioning at least on some kind of level J
• Keep on with the daily meditation

Everything else feels…like distractions… Is this “normal”?

[Natasha]

Hi @Jakob

Sounds like you have a good plan to keep moving your life forward. Leo's material and support of like-minded people will help you stay on track with your self-actualization. Also, get a full body detox to eliminate the aches and pains and to fix IBS. Natural medicine practitioners are best for that. Chlorella + cilantro will cleanse your body from heavy metals and various chemicals. You didn't mention what your diet is like, so be mindful of what you feed your cells with. As you probably already know, organic raw unprocessed foods from the earth are what builds up healthy body and is the best medicine. Here's some info on detox:

http://www.naturalnews.com/035177_chlorella_cilantro_detox.html  

   

[Jakob]

Hi Natasha! Thank's for your comment!

I made my health my biggest priority after I quit my job at the factory, because I was in a really poor shape. So I started to investigate nutrition and natural medicine because the conventional medicine with it's painkillers and anti-inflammatories only made me worse. So I have done couple of detoxes, including fasting to reboot my digestive systemsince then. I did a elimination diet in order to eliminate all the foods that I didn't tolerate. So now I eat a diet consisting of whole grains, legumes, fruits&vegetables and seeds (gluten,dairy, nuts and eggs makes me sick). I eat animal  protein only once a day, almost always consisting of fish, and in small portions, because I get this weird "brain fog" and lose my energy  after consuming large amounts of animal protein.  

[Natasha]

@Jakob That's awesome! I stopped eating red meat too, still a bit of organic chicken here and there, lots of fish (wild caught), and no grains other than organic buckwheat, rice and quinoa. There's a good book 'Grain Brain' by David Perlmutter I highly recommend, a real eye opener. 

Also, Curcumin BCM-95 is a potent anti-inflammatory for managing pain drug-free. I have occasional back pain and a couple of 725 mg capsules take care of it pronto.

[Jakob]

Thanks for the book recommendation! 

I am also a big fan of buckwheat, rice and quinoa, I eat amaranth also, these are the 4 types of grains that I consume daily! They taste good and are easy to digest!

[Natasha]

@Jakob Yes, a little bit of starch (like rice or potato) helps IBS. Also ginger and carrot juice. I bought a quality juicer awhile back and fresh juice almost daily. Also, morning green smoothies make great breakfast replacements. Highly nutritious and easy on digestion. 

Do you take probiotics? 

[Jakob]

yeah, actually i make my own sourkraut!  I will try to eat curcumin and ginger in larger quantities in order to try to reduce the inflammation, thanks for suggesting it!

[Natasha]

@Jakob Fermenting is awesome. I make my own sourkraut too, good stuff c(: In my country that was the way of life - fermenting veggies for winter and making preserves from fruit and berries. My grandmother even fermented apples and watermelon 

Keep up the good work and keep us posted on your progress!

 

[Jakob]

Fermented watermelon sounds awesome!!!

Yeah, I promise to be my potential everyday, and I will keep posting my progress!