On being a Conscious Incel - How do I confront and accept reality?

[assx95]

To put it into context, I am 24 living in one of the metropolitan cities in India. I understand how the term Incel is derogatory to women. Women don't owe me sex. At the same time, my body (or rather I) craves for sexual contact with women, when i get horny. Solo female pornography where women display their selves, is I think one of the most beautiful things a person like me could ask for, where i can choose the women i am attracted to, and pretend to make love to her. And spill myself. 

In real life however, i look average. I have a girl in my life, but it is long-distance. We haven't defined the relationship yet, but we flirt a lot and act like a couple. Went out with her like 4 times in total over 3 years. Yeah, poor numbers. That being said, the amount of rejections i've had to deal with, in nightclubs or otherwise while asking someone I know on Instagram is say about 60-70 so far in total. 

If i go to a nightclub tomorrow, i will probably end up with a number or two, but any attractive girl I choose (I know i'm guilty of not picking the ones I don't find attractive, i don't even notice them), will have 10 other dudes texting her, and commenting on her Instagram, and so it takes a lot of investment on my part to even keep a girl's attention, and much more for her to feel the spark if I feel it too. And given how busy everyone has become with their 9 to 7 jobs, at least here, it is like that. There's no time. 

I know i could just sit back and relax. Focus on other intriguing aspects of life such as books, psychedelics and spirituality in a broader sense, and run the clock out, as it will. I could be genuinely fulfilled as i am when i do strong determination sittings. My parents will force an arrange marriage on me when I turn 30, but i don't like the idea. I could go to Thailand or some Latin country for sex tourism, but i don't like that idea either. 

At this point in my conscious evolution, i see the meaninglessness in the things that will unfold in the future. Not in a negative connotation, but a sense of indifference. It doesn't matter. and if it does, i will do it. I am a cog in a wheel. I am replaceable even by a woman i love most dearly. I have cried like 5 times in the past when that happened, but now it doesn't break my heart anymore.  I try because i don't have the freewill to not try. I just don't see what is there to do or accomplish in this world, than just live it out. Am i just here on earth as a human, to rant, to do my own thing, possibly bliss out, and that's it? 

I just cannot come to terms with it. With it all. 

[Leo Gura]

7 hours ago, assx95 said:

If i go to a nightclub tomorrow, i will probably end up with a number or two, but any attractive girl I choose (I know i'm guilty of not picking the ones I don't find attractive, i don't even notice them), will have 10 other dudes texting her, and commenting on her Instagram, and so it takes a lot of investment on my part to even keep a girl's attention

LOL

Yeah, if you wanna bang hot girls you're gonna have competition. Welcome to the jungle.

You really expect hot girls for free?

You are way too entitled. Attracting hot girls is a lot of work, and it must be that way because hot girls are valuable & rare.

So either lower your standards or up your effort.

I got 400+ rejections before I slept with my first hot girl.

[SoonHei]

@assx95 difference between a master and a beginner is that the master has failed more time than the student has ever tried.

 

3 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

I got 400+ rejections before I slept with my first hot girl.

 

 

[Parththakkar12]

On 9/13/2019 at 7:01 PM, Leo Gura said:

I got 400+ rejections before I slept with my first hot girl.

Man did you really count these?!?! I mean seriously, I'd lose track after like 10 or something

[Arcangelo]

Sometimes I lower my standards and they still reject me. Then my ego kicks in: -''I was doing you a favor, You'd be lucky...''

I lower my standards so much that I think to my self: -''Really?''

2 hours ago, Parththakkar12 said:

Man did you really count these?!?! I mean seriously, I'd lose track after like 10 or something

I keep track of my rejections at the journal section you can go check it out if you want. Volume, quantity has quality on it's own.

On 9/12/2019 at 11:45 PM, assx95 said:

Solo female pornography where women display their selves, is I think one of the most beautiful things a person like me could ask for, where i can choose the women i am attracted to,

This will keep you away from 3d girls

 

On 9/12/2019 at 11:45 PM, assx95 said:

10 other dudes texting her

This thread touches interesting aspects about the social media dating era. Back in the day women were interested in making it work. Now they have so many options it's crazy. Think about it,

Scenario A:

It's 1992, you are a hot girl about to go out with your girlfriends. You are dressing sexy tonight to attract a boyfriend. You got 10 phone calls from 2-3 dudes, that week. OP approaches you, he looks average, but so the other 2-3 dudes and the dudes that hit on you at work. At least this guy is new, let's give him a shot....

Scenario B:

It's 2019, Trump is the president of the USA. Global warming is inevitable, earth has gone to sh@t and nobody gives a f@ck, everybody is a selfish @sshole. You are a hot girl about to go out with your girlfriends. You are dressing sexy tonight to post it on instagram, you got 300+ messages on tinder, and you have been texting with 10 other dudes that day. OP approaches you while you are bored swipping left and right at the club, you look at him and act like you are from another country and don't understand english.

Too many options man. They got lawyers, doctors and politicians asking them out.

What chance does hardworking at ''McDonald's'' guys like us have? I try to balance it out by staying in shape, and have a personality. But at the end of the day in this orange society cash makes things so much easier.

I talked to my sister about it and she was like: -''Well what do you expect, no one can eat love...'' 

On 9/12/2019 at 11:45 PM, assx95 said:

I know i'm guilty of not picking the ones I don't find attractive, i don't even notice them)

I think you are doing a good job by not picking the ones you don't find attractive. Remember that you are investing time and money.

 

On 9/12/2019 at 11:45 PM, assx95 said:

I know i could just sit back and relax. Focus on other intriguing aspects of life such as books, psychedelics and spirituality in a broader sense, and run the clock

Yeah, do that.

 

Arc

Edited December 13, 2019 by Arcangelo
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[Preety_India]

There's no point in having a long distance relationship.. It will only hurt you more. It doesn't satisfy your needs in a relationship. 

Long distance relationships are like clouds that just pass by. 

In your case it seems you're friendly enough to be able to approach so many girls as you mention. So approaching shouldn't be a problem. 

I think you just haven't hit the jackpot yet. So keep trying. And don't get upset with rejections. 

Work on yourself in the mean time. 

 

 

[assx95]

@Arcangelo Could you post a link to your pickup journal? I can't find it. 

[Ananta]

32 minutes ago, assx95 said:

@Arcangelo Could you post a link to your pickup journal? I can't find it. 

 

[assx95]

@Anna1 Hey thanks Anna

[Ananta]

Just now, assx95 said:

@Anna1 Hey thanks Anna

Your welcome ?