What's wrong with living an unconscious life?

[Barna]

4 hours ago, Truth Addict said:

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[Truth Addict]

@Barna

What I meant to say was that I used a different label as a pointer. The word 'happy' usually means 'excited' to the ordinary person. This excitement comes before peace and is usually followed by a sadness. That is what Eckhart referred to as 'happiness and unhappiness'. Highs and lows is what he means. But to someone who is already in self-development, I would guess the word 'happy' probably means an everlasting feeling of joy. This feeling comes from and after finding peace. That's what I want our friend here to have. 

Edited September 1, 2019 by Truth Addict

[Billy Shears]

Thanks for all the kind answers.  I have read all of them and appreciate your attention, even if I do not react to everyone.  By the way I feel better and relieved today!

[Billy Shears]

14 hours ago, Aaron p said:

@Billy Shears And the thing is, the suffering won't go away ever. Also, people like us have a bit of an unfair advantage. When someone suffers from any kind of psychological condition, the pain flows through all of reality and it exposes the spirit realm. Someone who is in constant pain is pretty much guaranteed that they'll have a higher consciousness than average. They have something something that seekers wish they had, something keeping them constantly aware of the present moment. Even if it's pain. Keeps you constantly aware. I don't mind it.

@Aaron p

Can you please elaborate further what you mean? And why do you think it's an advantage? 

[undeather]

18 hours ago, Billy Shears said:

I gotta be honest to you.

I don't do any spiritual practices, I'm addicted to bad stuff like alcohol and cannabis, I have OCD, etc. and I'm still  heavily identified with my ego/body/mind.

I know that there is more to life, I feel that I'm living an illusion but the only reason why I got into this stuff is because I had two psychotic episodes when I realized that my whole life is determined and free will is an illusion. After the bliss I got really mad, thought that I was Jesus, etc. You know this sick stuff.

Maybe I could just start doing the work or taking some psychedelics to break through the illusion. But I'm too afraid that eventually I'll lose my mind and go insane because I'm very fragile, have always been.

I don't want to sound like a victim, I'm just trying to describe my current situation.

Should I continue researching about enlightenment or should I better focus on other things which keep me trapped in the illusion but would rather serve my sanity?

In the end what I'm trying to say is does it really matter? I mean if I'm really God, everytying and nothing at the same time, absolute infinity... Shouldn't I just give a f*ck?

If that's what I as God want to experience, isn't it perfect so that there aren't right or wrong choices? If God wants to experience itself as this ego, why should I worry that I'm not enlightened or woke and that I live an unconscious life?

Thanks for your responses.

I drink (in fact, I am hungover right now as I am writing this). I smoke hookah every other weekend. I have a lot of simply pleasured, deep blue/orange(spiral dynamcis) friends I love to hang out with. I go out at nights with the sole purpose of picking up hot chicks. I watch TV (rarely though). I watch the news. I use social networks daily. I just spent the last 5 days playing World of Warcraft classic for 16+ hours/day trying to get my mage server first 60. I grew up in a deep blue-centric (spiral dynamics) surrounding. I love to gossip with my friends. We have a really dark & unmature sense of humour. I want to look good, dress well & its important for me to make an impression . I enjoy pop culture. Sometimes I eat a 30 inch pizza on my own. I am not enlightened. I am not perfect and I still suffer sometimes (even though its not bad at all). 

I am fit as fuck. I eat a mostly plant based, whole foods diet. I meditate daily. I am currently implemanting a yoga routine. I read a lot of books/audiobooks about spirituality and other self actualization stuff. I am about to become a medical doctor. I have a great relationship with my parents. I am aware of non-duality. I have had coupple of realizations. I experiment with psychodelics. I have a lot of great friends I love to spent time with. I have 2-3 friends who are highly concious, I enjoy them as much as my lower conciousness friends (Topics of discussion are quite different though). I watch Leo Gura videos. I have had moments of awe lately where I almost begin to cry because of how beautiful this life & reality is. I am really happy (most of the time).


Becoming more concious doesnt mean anything particular, dont let people fool you.
Yes, your habits might change, but thats because you want them to change. It puts the steering wheel of your life into your hands. You can become an elightened master who likes fucking trannies with a strap-on after the 6th Tequila sunrise and 2 lines of coke. Its not likely, but it exists. 

A lot of people (not all obviously) here on this forum have quite a miserable life. Dont take advice from them. You actually know what to do, but your emotions/thoughts get in the way. 

Personally, I just want to enjoy/experience & ultimately play this video game of life and this is definitely easier to do so, with a certain level of conciousness. Thats why I do this work.

Greetings

Edited September 1, 2019 by undeather

[Billy Shears]

@undeather

Oh yes, indeed. Good advice! ✌?