A scary guided meditation experience (pls help!)

[Eliska]

I tried a guided meditation to meet your higher self on youtube and Ive had a really weird experience.

Ive already tried the same guided meditation a year ago. It was a pleasant experience, but a lot has changed and I was curious to see what it would be like now compared to a year ago.

In the meditation, your highr self lives in a massive tree on a meadow in a forest. When I met my higher self, it was good at first. We huged and cried. I even brought my inner child with me and they were very happy to see each other. 

But then suddenly I wanted to run away. When I resisted the urge to run, I grew these giant wings that started flapping around, trying to get me out of the house. The more I resisted, the more they pulled. The wings managed to get me out of the tree and into the air, flying away. When I finally gave up and stopped resisting the wings, they stopped flapping and I staring falling down. I fell in front of the giant tree and I as looked up, my higher self was watching me. 

When I wanted to go towards her, the wings started panicking and pulled me away. This time, I grew claws and tried to hold onto the ground but as the wings pulled me, I left claw marks in the grass and destroyed all the flowers. All the animals that were on the meadow ran away. 

I was so confused and scared. I didnt want to run away, but I also didnt want to destroy the things around me. The inner child came towards me and kissed my forehead. Finally the tree started burning, so I left. 

 

Please, can anyone help me? Ive only done guided meditation a couple of times but it was never this "negative". It really freaked me out.

[SriBhagwanYogi]

Thats your mind playing tricks not higher self 

 

[Matt8800]

2 hours ago, Eliska said:

I tried a guided meditation to meet your higher self on youtube and Ive had a really weird experience.

Ive already tried the same guided meditation a year ago. It was a pleasant experience, but a lot has changed and I was curious to see what it would be like now compared to a year ago.

In the meditation, your highr self lives in a massive tree on a meadow in a forest. When I met my higher self, it was good at first. We huged and cried. I even brought my inner child with me and they were very happy to see each other. 

But then suddenly I wanted to run away. When I resisted the urge to run, I grew these giant wings that started flapping around, trying to get me out of the house. The more I resisted, the more they pulled. The wings managed to get me out of the tree and into the air, flying away. When I finally gave up and stopped resisting the wings, they stopped flapping and I staring falling down. I fell in front of the giant tree and I as looked up, my higher self was watching me. 

When I wanted to go towards her, the wings started panicking and pulled me away. This time, I grew claws and tried to hold onto the ground but as the wings pulled me, I left claw marks in the grass and destroyed all the flowers. All the animals that were on the meadow ran away. 

I was so confused and scared. I didnt want to run away, but I also didnt want to destroy the things around me. The inner child came towards me and kissed my forehead. Finally the tree started burning, so I left. 

 

Please, can anyone help me? Ive only done guided meditation a couple of times but it was never this "negative". It really freaked me out.

@Eliska Sounds like a combination of an ego backlash from some dissolution of the ego combined with a lack of inner strength. Id suggest looking up the thread I posted about Building Inner Strength - Occult Style and making that a part of your practice. Building massive amounts of inner strength/power is a great way of keeping negative entities/energies and fear away from you.